I don’t know.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
I feel like I’m locked behind a door of my emotions yet no one can hear my screams
Thoughts race around my head like a Nascar track, I want to be free yet so much is holding me back
I feel like a stick of dynamite that didn’t yet explode and everyone is just waiting for it to go.
My mind was a calm beach till you came back now it’s a category 5 hurricane.
I love you but I’m not ready, my heart is still in a cast from when you just RAN it over.
I want to act like it never happened but it doesn’t just go away.
Scars won’t fade and hearts won’t heal in the time of a day.
I’m scared of getting hurt again, but I can’t just walk away.
I can’t just throw away everything I know.
That’d be like a turtle without a shell,
Or a head without a brain.
My life without you, just wouldn’t be the same.
I love you, I’m hoping you’ll love me again
An original spoken word poem