I have always had trust issues, but when it comes to guys, my trust issues get really bad. A lot of people say “don’t let your past cloud your judgment of other guys, not all guys are the same”. At first I thought they were right but once the guy did the same thing four times I knew that no matter how many times a guy says he’s sorry, he never is sorry. They feel sorry in that moment but once we accept their apology they think everything is okay, since it was so easy they do it again. I swear sometimes guys have no feelings and sometimes they just don’t think. It was a stormy, cloudy day. When I walked into school I could hear all the thunder behind me as I closed the door and that’s when reality hit me, my day has officially started. I had a feeling it was going to be a pretty good day, I liked the way I looked, I felt pretty, and I was happy, and no I wasn’t pretending I was actually happy. As I walked into school Stacy looked at me, she had this look in her eyes that vie only ever seen once, and I saw it when she found out her dog died. Seeing that look scared me. I thought something happened to her, or her family, but the only thing Stacy said to me was “I’m so sorry” then she walked away. I was confused but I thought to myself, maybe she was just having one of her little crazy days, so I blew it off and kept walking to class. I looked down the hall and saw the same look from everyone else in the school; this is when I started to get worried. Mark and jack came up to me and said “babe you deserve better then him, he isn’t worth your time”. I looked at both of them and said “who isn’t worth it”? They both looked at each other than me, then each other again. That’s when the truth came out, everything that I thought wouldn’t happen again , happened, they told me that “ chase cheated on me with Lexi, I pretended that it was okay, that it didn’t bother me, but I wanted to cry, and keep crying. I told them I needed to go to the bathroom… I ran to the bathroom looked at myself in the mirror and asked myself “why”? As I was walking out of the bathroom I saw him, I saw Chase. He came up to me and tried to hug me, I pushed him away and told him to get over himself and that we were over, he asked why and I just walked away, he told me to stop that he didn’t mean it, the same things I heard the first three times, yes you heard me right this is the fourth time he had cheated on me. Why am I still with him you ask? Well here’s why because I don’t trust guys, I don’t let people in my life, and I defiantly don’t like starting over with guys, starting a new relationship, getting to know a new guy I just don’t like that. I am so shy and quite when it comes to my feelings, and he was the guy that I let into my life, the one I gave my everything to and he threw it away! Threw it away that it was just an empty rapper that no one wanted. Well I had enough; I’m done being treated this way.

I went home and I came back the next day, came back to school with a smile on my face, not caring what anyone said or did because today, today was my day and I wasn’t going to let anyone, not one person ruin my day. My “boyfriend” well ex now came up to me and told me that he still loved me and he would never do it again, I looked at him and said “ thank you for the nice story but have a fantastic day” as I walked away with a smile on my face.

To all the girls out there who think they are alone and no guy will ever want them, I have news for you, there is that one special guy out there and he’s waiting for you to come around.