Bully-

There is nothing worse
Than knowing you are the reason why.
Why somebody had to go through all this,
And suffer all this pain and bullying.
Why things had to end up this way.
I can’t say I’m surprised,
But I could have stopped.
I should have stopped
Would have stopped,
But never did.
The words were deeper than intended
Biting like a snake,
Killing like venom.






What if it was all gone in an instant?

I wonder what it felt like.
I’d like to think it wasn’t painful,
But I know better,
Because I caused this.
The emotional and physical pain of it all.
The pain of being bullied.
I’m sure at the end of it all,
It was a relief.
Knowing I was gone,
Just a distant memory.




I hope it worked.
For everyone here to suffer,
Because of me.
For my mistakes,
My doings.
It wasn’t worth it


While I took the selfish way out.
Harming others,
To feel superior,
When in reality,
I am the coward,
And I am the bully,
Because I am bullied.
I am both the bully,
And victim.





This person was beautiful,
But the fate was a disaster.
This is all just a beautiful disaster.


Bullied-

There is nothing worse









The words were deeper than intended


Feeling like I am worthless.
A failure.
A failure at school,
At friends,
At family
At life.
What if it was all gone in an instant?
I’d like that.







It was a relief.

Just a distant memory.
The snap of fingers
Like the slicing of my skin,
I cut away the imperfections,
To make them happy.
I hope it worked.




It wasn’t worth it.
Knowing the people I had hurt,
Stay here alone,
While I took the selfish way out.









I am both the victim,
And bully.
I am a disaster.
I had to be beautiful.


This is all just a beautiful disaster.