She cries every night. Prays that miracles exist maybe she won't have to do the same thing again. Flashbacks of when she was a kid things started getting bad when she turned 10.
And everybody laughs and she'll laugh with them but when she goes home and locks herself in that bedroom and digs into her skin because those words they said cut deeper than the blades her mother hid. And she screams as loud as she can but the monsters inside her head want her dead and she prays to god that one day when she's gone they'll understand that she didn't want attention she just wanted all of this to end.