I feel the tears building
once again
but
once again
I force them not to come
my head aches
spins
with hot frustration
at the people around me
so clueless
and aggravating
they give me opportunities that come
to nothing
and hold me back when real chances
arise
they do it without cause
without reason
just because they can
I want to scream and run away
give up and hide
I've tried to explain
tell them how I feel
but all they can do it nod
sympathetically
and ignore me as before
everyone will listen
but nobody will hear
to them my words are meaningless
as meaningless as sand
we only get along
when I pretend to be happy
and smile
smile through my pain
I wish they could understand
how much effort it truly takes
sometimes I wonder if they
knew
if they would even care
if it would even make a difference
my chest burns with bitterness
thrashing with a restless
fire
that never ceases to hurt
my eyes sting
from choking back
ever threatening tears
and all the while
the people around me
remain oblivious
and let me suffer in silence
because we both know
they will never help me