If you've never been depressed
Then you shouldn't judge me
My feelings seem so oppressed
Sometimes I am my own worst enemy

Never feeling this horrible in the past
I feel broken into shards of glass
Here I sit with tortured thoughts
I've come to suspect all is lost

Outside you see a girl, fearless and tough
Yet inside she hides living in fear
What you see of me is my own personal disguise
But you can't see the images when I close my eyes

Angry as the rumbling thunder
Should I do what she says and just go die?
I look at the sky and begin to wonder
If I did, would she even feel bad and cry?

Not able to handle this, it becomes hard to breathe
Having so much pain and so much sorrow
Happiness is just another stupid tease
To me all today is, is just yesterdays tomorrow

Not able to trust anyone
Broken hearted, the devil has won
With little confidence and bad self-esteem
Is not my life, but inside me

Wanting to be excited
Wanting to care more
But when nothing makes sense
It's hard to care for the poor

Feeling everyone's better than me
And that I can't do anything right
I've seem to have felt like this my whole damn life
You can't see this from your first sight

Cluttered mind, cluttered thoughts
It's hard for me to keep in touch
With whats happening to me
And not trying to worry so much

Endless days of struggle
Trying to appear to be normal
The crying inside hides behind my smile
But it only lasts for a little while

When you see my smile is really gone
You will know hell has just begun
I'll get all mad and really angry
But all I want is for someone to save me

Always on a roller coaster
Not much consistency
I'm nothing if I'm up or down
I'm nothing, even if I'm just me

Life is a bitter sweet pill
That I'm forced to take against my will
Everyone trying to pull me
Back into their so called "Society"

Not just for depression but for anger too
Feeling so pungent, frigid, and cold
Seems as if my veins have no passion even pumping through
This blankness inside of me really gets old

Some days I am just so stressed
You just can not see
So, if you've never been depressed
Then you shouldn't judge me