I cannot fathom why you left
I cannot decide what to do
And all the unimaginable feelings I’ve felt
I just don’t have strength to subdue

The moment I found out you were gone
Reality transformed to a nightmare
And suddenly everything seemed just so wrong
It all was just too hard to bear

You filled my life with happiness
Your mission was to make me smile
The day you got into a horrible mess
Unfixable, it made me bile

Determined to move away from the past
I’ve entertained myself enough
With silliness that lead to my madness
I’ve destructed and made it all rough

Uncontrollable fear of solitude
Escaped with every breath
Anger and deadliness filled my mood
Causing my very souls death

A bottomless pit occupying my body
Digs deeper within each hit
Cause this demanding pain is like a bad hobby
That destroys me bit by bit

Lonesome and crushed are the feelings felt
After deaths that occur and deafen you
The unlucky hand has been freely dealt
Which allows your gruesome emotions through

And each day reminds me about
That horrible deadly event
Because I chose the traumatizing route
My heart is all shattered and bent

Memories cannot be erased
Of the ones you love so dearly
Tried and failed cause your life’s based
On the pain endured so merely

So why, is my final request
Can you explain why you had to leave
As I ponder it over and over at rest
This unanswerable question still haunts me