There is a question that haunts me
Why can’t I have everyone I love in one place?
It’s a simple question
But no one can answer it

I do know that everything I do is watched
I no that
But something’s can be easily seen
and easily hidden

I am completely different when I get to my house here
My mood is the complete opposite
I just feel … strange
Believe me nothing would help now

I feel scared and depressed
It almost making me angry
There is one thing I no for sure
I’m going to fall apart as soon as I get home

I feel so pretty there
I feel wanted there
Here I am nothing
Here all I am good for is to not be seen

All I want to do is reintroduce myself to the sharp edges
I want to lay next to my dog
I want to hurt myself because it’s my fault we are here
I want to hurt myself


We haven’t even been in this state for an hour
I already am ready to punish
I wanted to make a promise to not hurt
But it will end up being to late

Why why why why why why
I wish some one could take this pain off me
But its ok I’m fine
Ill survive…