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What I'm Going Through
My heart is dropping beneath my chest
It's caving in- in the depths of my breast
I feel it sinking- lower, lower
Internally bleeding- slower and slower
How can you stand there and watch me fall?
Or are your concerns about my health just way too small?
Do you honestly believe that smile I force?
How when I laugh, my throat is hoarse?
Do you really believe me when I say I'm okay?
Do you not listen to what the voice in the back of your head has to say?
I can't be upfront- you have enough problems of your own
So I pretend I'm content- my true feelings unknown
You're fully attached to that beautiful boy,
But at the same time, you're slaughtering my joy
I try not to mind when he's all over you,
But my pain is a scar- no longer a bruise
And when you call me at night to spill the things you two do,
You could never understand the thoughts I go through
Yet, eager I listen and memorize every detail
I'd rather know everything- I'm nosy as hell
You can't hog him forever- at some point you'll crack
Then I'll take the liberty to win him back
Oh, never mind, I couldn't do that to you
I won't put you through what I'm going through