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Angels

March 27, 2023
By ChelseaGipson26 BRONZE, Cleveland Heights, Ohio
ChelseaGipson26 BRONZE, Cleveland Heights, Ohio
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Growing up I never saw black angels

Only the white ones pictured on the church walls

Blond hair, blue eyes, our differences stood far

Mosaics filled with colors yet lack mine

I wondered why demons were pictured dark, color like mine

I thought I was damned

Thought my future was defined

By the white men- I mean chalk lines


Why angels had softer hair, fairer skin, wings to carry them once you bury them

But when I’m buried,

do the wings grow out my back or does my heart sink to my chest?

Leaving me only to the crust

Floating in what would be limbo while hell awaits for us


Growing up I only saw black angels 

No white ones pictured on the news

Only the brown ones were beaten black and blue 

Grew up thinking death was upon me like it was for them


Angels can't have curly hair?

Angles can't have brown eyes?

Angels have innocence while I grew up hearing 

Otherwise

White lies

Conscience lacking empathy with their hair so silky

Complexion so milky

I felt dirty

Mistreatment, unheard, traumatized

I felt overlooked, though our stories could never be glamorized


Growing up I only saw white angels

Seeing these white angels gave me a sense of hope

That a black child cannot die.

News pans differently but I too see the far cries


I use to read the papers, sounding out the words and turning slow for the pages

Kids like me, barely even older

Why are they angels?

Where are the wings on their shoulders?

The angels painted in the church aren't the ones I see on the news

Black kids names seems so overused

I mix up their stories now, so many I get quite confused.

Power seems abused. 


Why aren't those angels black and blue?

Where are their bruises?

Why don't they have bullet holes?

Where are their obituaries, saying how they are great children?

Where are their parents holding onto their caskets?

Mothers hearts giving out

Fathers waiting to work past this

Don't they have toy trains too?

Monopoly and Uno?

Kickball and hide n seek?

Black Barbies and hot wheels?

Sippy cups and pull ups?

All I'm wondering is

Why don't we get to grow up?


The author's comments:

From this piece, I hope people, no matter their race or ethnicity, will gain and understand the perspective of a black child growing up in America. This piece relates to every part of me. As a black child I constantly had questions on why characters in shows did not look like me or why people who looked like me were treated so differently. I have grown up seeing black faces on the news, social media, and the newspaper almost everyday. Seeing fellow children who were like me on the news dead put fear in me at a young age. I have even seen videos of traumatizing police brutality resulting in death spread across social media. Not only are these black people dying but black children are, some having their life cut short at as young as 7 years old. Whether these deaths and police brutality happen in my city or across the country many of these stories go unheard and names go unknown. These deaths and situations affect the black community heavily but yet this country still seems to ignore the issues it has created. So many black children live in fear and some do not get the chance to grow up because of these issues. With this piece I hope this provides not only perspective but realization of how it is to be a black child in America.


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