Living With Depression

Katrina Keyes

6:15 I wake up feeling drained as 

If I got no sleep at all,

But in a sense that is true.

You see depression is like an all around brawl

A brawl with myself if I should even 

Get up in the morning

But I continue to smile. 

In this school I walk these halls staring 

Down at my phone because I don’t have enough

Energy to interact with other people

I go to class and and put my head down 

And I can already hear my teachers comments 

“You’re lazy, do better, it’s like she doesn’t even try”

My eyes fill up with water and I have to demand myself not to cry

But I continue to smile. 

You see depression is like being at the bottom of the ocean 

Unable to breathe but also unable to drown.

It’s as if you’re stuck in time and everything around you is moving so fast

Then you realized five years have passed.

And nothing has changed. You still feel the low energy spirit always circling you

I think to myself when if this phase gonna pass through

Then you have to come to the sad reality that it's not a phase

It's your life and you just always gotta hope it won't stay this way

But no matter what, hide your emotions

Don’t let them in 

Stay at the bottom of the ocean 

Continue to smile, even if it's just a grin.