1 year ago

i had it all

i had the boy i wanted in every way i wanted

you were all that mattered

365 days ago

i hugged you as you were getting ready to head home

i told you i loved you and you said it back

i knew we weren’t right but we worked through those times before

i didn’t expect a difference this time

52 weeks ago

i cried on my couch needing you

i didn’t know what to expect from us

i just knew i needed you more than ever

8760 hours ago

i replayed everything in my head from the last week trying to figure out where i went wrong

i felt a shift

you said ‘i’m fine we’re fine’

now i look back and realize you didn’t mean that

525,600 minutes ago

i waited anxiously for you to respond

you said you needed a break the day before

but told me today you only wanted me

every emotion possible went through my body

and your name gave me goosebumps immediately

31,536,000 seconds ago

i wish i was able to go back and prepare myself

‘i’ve been through it before if you want it over i can take it i’ll be fine’

i managed to get those words out

i knew they weren’t true

but you thought they were

throughout all of those months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, and seconds apart

you cross my mind

my opinions on you changed as time passed

i should be over it

i want to go back to 1 year ago and work it out with you

but we moved on anyway

and since it’s been past our time

this will be the year i give up on us

even though i’ve been trying for the last 4.