Worried

Scared

Hesitant

That is how I feel

24/7

Life sometimes feels unreal

I’m apprehensive 

About what will happen next

Why can’t I live normally

Everything is complexed

My trouble mind is like a maze

I’m constantly lost

I feel like I’m in a haze

But at what cost

“Just don’t be nervous”

People say to me

I wish that’s how it worked

I’d easily agree

At night I can’t sleep

I’m so uneasy

Why am I so nervous?

It makes me queasy

But on the outside I fake it

Like an actress in a play

Put on a fake smile

And just make it through the day

So to you I look just fine

Like life in under control

But on the inside

I need to be consoled

So when you ask me how I am

I will simply lie

I will say I’m great

But truly I want to cry