It’s getting so difficult to stay awake

My meal from dinner is still on it’s plate

I don’t feel tired, but it’s so so late

But the thought of the dark makes me hyperventilate

The darkness is where the overthinking begins

I can feel my brain beginning to spin

I feel like I’m spiraling, falling deeper and deeper in

Nothing but awful thoughts blowing through the wind 

I go to school happy though I’m screaming on the inside

I’ll finish my work though I’m being swept by the tide

My thoughts of any happiness have started to slide

But no one will ever know how many times I’ve cried

And until that time comes, I will lay in my bed

Not to sleep, to let the thoughts run through my head

I can’t adapt to the pain, so I’ll avoid it instead

I’ll cover my face with a mask to hide my dread

It’s not like anyone cares, they all have happy lives

Without a care in the world, nothing breaking their strides

Everyone lies and says, “It’s going to be fine.”

So I’ll hide with my music ‘till I’m someone I don’t recognize