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What if?

August 25, 2022
By Snicker_36 BRONZE, South Ogden, Utah
Snicker_36 BRONZE, South Ogden, Utah
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Favorite Quote:
"People should run free with beards and books!" Mr. Wilson, my history teacher


What if I like waffles more than pancakes?

What if I moved to Mars?

What if the world is flat?

What if violets were actually violet?

What if I was two inches taller?

What if the class next door was quieter?

What if I had less siblings?

What if grammar not did to have exist?

What if I lived in the Stone Age?

What if I’m not human?

What if I am?

What if I didn’t have to go to high school?

What if I don’t want a role model?

What if I didn’t walk into so many walls?

What if I had more brain cells?

What if I had an existential crisis?

What if I don’t pass my classes?

What if I don’t care?

What if I don’t want to understand anymore?

What if I wasn’t so awkward?

What if I run the extra mile?

What if I wasn’t so broken?

What if I didn’t do so many stupid things?

What if I had bigger dreams?

What if I was prettier?

What if I can’t reach my stars? 

What if I didn’t have to cry so often?

What if I had more panic attacks?

What if I could change?

What if I can’t change?

What if I could do better?

What if I knew how to be better?


But…

What if there were no what-ifs?

What if I didn’t have to question myself?

What if I didn’t have to question everything?

What if I didn’t have to question people!!


What if I used “I can”?

What if I used “I have”?

What if I used “I am”?

What if I used “I know”?


I can change.

I have run the extra mile.

I am dreaming. 

I know my bigger dreams. 

I can pass my classes. 

I have to care about something or someone. 

I am finding my stars.

I know that clumsiness is a part of me. 

I can do better.

I have at least three brain cells.

I am not going to have an existential crisis today. 

I know that crying is great for my skin.

I can get stronger and become less broken.

I have done fewer stupid things… Recently.

I am awkward and will forever be.

I know I should not, I should never question myself.


The author's comments:

I have anxiety and these were the type of questions that ran through my head every time I had a panic attack. My creative writing teacher pushed me to write how I felt and this is what I feel like. Everyone goes through something like this. It is okay. 


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Afra DIAMOND said...
on Aug. 29 at 11:26 am
Afra DIAMOND, Kandy, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"You can’t ask other people to believe you and vote for you if you don’t back yourself."
-Jacinda Ardern-

"If I can make someone's day brighter, happier, better, that makes me happier."
-Ava Max-

"A writer must never be short of ideas."
-Gabriel Agreste- (Fictional character- Miraculous)

"A Bridge Has Two Sides."
-Elsa- (Fictional character- Frozen)

“I knew who I was as a girl but I had to find who I was as a woman.”
-Delta Goodrem-

This is so empowering!!! Gives me the vibes of Lena Meyer's 'wild and free'...
Keep writing!!!

on Aug. 26 at 12:47 pm
Egycal52 SILVER, --, California
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Favorite Quote:
"Hats off to the past, coats off to the future."
- American Proverb
"Why do you keep hiding behind your mask,
When even the scars formed by your mistakes
are you own constellations?"

I can't describe how this poem made me feel.. it is so powerful and reassuring. Stay gold!