The girl I used to know

The girl I used to know held her head up

no challenge was too heavy for her

the girl I used to know sang with pride

no words could be wrong to her

she would laugh with no force

smile with no doubt

every day she would glow the way people did then,

but when I look at her now

her light doesn’t shine the way it did

her spark won’t look alive anymore

when I see her in the mirror I see I tired girl

that fell too many times

and can’t get back up

Hospital Beds

Every morning

I live for that second

that I’m home

in my own bed

every morning nested in the memory

of my own ceiling up above me

breathing in the air they get to breathe

that flies away so quickly

when I feel the itch of the hospital sheets

awaiting the moment that I peel my eyes open,

to find that I’m still here

Anchor

you’re my anchor

holding me back

keeping me stuck

the weight

so hard to ignore

no matter how much I wish to move on

I feel your tug

waiting for me to come back to you