when you told me you chose her all that ran through my head was “i would’ve never done this to you”

It sounds so dramatic, but it's so true. 

it wasn’t just you chose to date her, it was you chose her over me to have in your life.

I thought I was irreplaceable. I thought I was your best friend. I thought I finally had someone who would choose me over and over again. someone who would love me forever, no matter the circumstance. 

but you chose the girl who left you over and over again. 

The girl who literally chose other people over you multiple times. 

the girl who would drain you all time. 

Whatever, things like this usually don’t bother me because I know who I am and all of my worth, but this really bothered me. 

i mean the next day i couldn’t shake the feeling. 

until it hit me. 

It hurt so bad because my whole life all that’s ever been done to me was being chosen over. All my parents ever did was choose anything and everything over me. I was so tired of that feeling. All I craved was for someone to choose me and love me everyday, over and over again. To finally feel important. 

I practically ran away from the feeling of being chosen over my whole life, yet you brought me right back to that. And it hurt even more because I guess I just didn’t expect it from you. 

And I would've never done this to you. 

And I know my mommy and daddy issues aren’t your problem, so i’m not mad at you. I guess I'm just disappointed at the situation. I have all this anger and have no one to blame it on or anywhere to put it. 

I just wasn’t expecting it, especially from you. 

I know I love more than I tend to get back. 

My mom says it's because i was made to love yet, i'm so tired of this feeling.

I’m so tired of being hurt by the people I love the most; especially since I know I don't deserve that. 

and what sucks even more is that if i was put in this situation, i think i would still choose you. I love you so much, I still would never hold this against you. 

I still would never do this to you and I hope I never make you feel this way.