I want to escape you.  

I feel like I’m stuck, stuck in this never-ending lope of my past.  

I’ll always be trapped because you're always there, there in my mind full of sadness.  

Your there in my memories filling even the happy ones with a dark shadow.  

Your there in my dreams making me get no sleep just horrible pain, pain that feels like it’s ingrained in my brain. 

Your there when someone yells, imaging all the words you used to say raising your voice louder than thunder on a gross stormy day leaving bruises that will never go away. 

Your there when a guy gets too close to me thinking they're going to hurt me, hurt me like you did.  something I will never forget. 

Your there when I see the places you used to take me just to use me. Those places haunting my heart the prices left broken, never put back together. 

Your there when I try to say something, I try to speak only to temper the way you beat me just because I spoke. For that, I am now silenced with fear. 

Your there when I look in the mear, the Mirror now a place or terroir as you destroyed any little bit of confidence I had left. 

Your there when I see daughters and dads together a relationship we will never have.  

Your there stuck in this lope of my never-ending past. 

Your there.  

Always there, Every second of every day.  

I just want it all to go away. 

Why?  

Why are you always there?