I used to think…

I used to think you cared

but wouldn't you have shown it?

The constant restless nights

Screaming

Yelling

Throwing

Sirens.

I used to believe you.

You'd tell me you'd stop

And that's all I ever wanted

Was for it to stop.

Stop the drinking

Stop the drugs

Stop the late night phone calls saying how much you hate me

Stop the texts when I'm with my friends and have to act like everything is okay.

Stop the hurtful words,

That can never be cured.

I used to think that when you said sorry

You meant it.

But now i'm just told

“You need to get over it”

I never thought it would last this long,

Or even get to this point.

But love makes you do some messed up things,

Too bad it was only on my part.

I used to think that was love,

Until I realized I could never do half of that to you.