Dear X,

We were friends, for some time, but now we aren’t 

Of course we have mutual friends, but we still don’t talk

We ended off on a bad note, 

So I couldn’t really explain how I felt

I’m sorry we aren’t friends, but I just couldn't do it anymore.

It was draining.

Draining to the point where my self-esteem was lowered everyday

Draining to the point where I had no self-confidence

Draining to the point where I would cry myself to sleep

I don’t know if you know, but if you are told something everyday, you start to believe it.

I know it was a joke to you, but it actually really hurt.

So if you wonder why I would cut myself off from you when I was upset, 

It’s because I knew I would always be judged.

About how I felt

About how I reacted

And that mutual friend we have, let’s call them Y.

You two are X and Y. 

You belong together

You will always stick together,

But I am A.

I never really belonged

I know I will never win, with any of you, 

Because it’s always two against one.

I will always be the one that’s out.

I don’t know why, but I’ve accepted it.

So, I have to let go and grow as a person.

If you do, maybe we can try being friends again. 

If not, I get it.

So, maybe this is goodbye.

     With love, A.