I will never tell you how I imagined my suicide in the shower

How I watched myself take the frozen metal rails

And lifted my one shaking leg over the bridge

And stared down at the ice cold, daunting gaze of the great Mississippi

How I closed my eyes and pictures your face appeared behind my eyelids

While the cold pierced my skin and my woes pierced my heart

I will never tell you the effort it took to slid my other leg over the railing and step into my coffin

Watching the river crash it's arms against the ice

I will never say how terror gripped my insides knowing that this was my final day

Yet knowing I cannot swim gives me comfort

I will never tell you how time froze as I fell  

My face casted towards the stars

The cold wind holding me suspended in air for a few granted moments as I whisper my goodbyes

Goodbye moon, my lips shake against the syllables

Goodbye love, my eyes damp with defeat

Goodbye fear, my heart thumping in my chest

What I will tell you is everything has finally stopped

Time no longer continues