Growing up I felt so lonely, I felt like I had no one, and the only way to share my feelings was by writing down what I felt. So I did, since I was in 3rd grade I started writing my feelings in a journal that I used to have, and to this day I still write. That's how this poem came to be, I started remembering my past and my first crush came up, and I just started writing. This poem is based on a crush I had on a boy and one day he just told me he wasn't coming back to school, that, that day was his last day. I felt heartbroken, we had been such best friends, but I knew I had to move on because I just had to, there would be other boys in the future. This is a pantoum poem so that's why a lot of lines are repeated.