Dear past self,

Why did you have to do that to yourself?

Create a cluster of bad habits that stick to you like ticks on a summer day.

Like when you are sad,

You run away from the people that want you to say

What is on your mind.

You isolate your pain and leave it in the back of your head.

You rather keep whatever you are thinking about in your source.

Then let your words be said.

It is okay to be vulnerable just for a second,

But the very thought of it makes you want to vomit.

So you tend to isolate yourself from getting help.

Pushing away all the people that you care about

Shutting yourself out from the real deal

Replacing it with some other person’s cry for help

Avoiding the issues that you have with yourself

That is not all

You created a defense that is so unhealthy

That when tend to fall

You don’t know who to call

You created a mindset that everyone you talk to doesn’t like you.

That the people that probably care about you the most,

Are the people who you think hates you and wish you were a ghost.

So dear past self,

I am over you

I am not going to stick to you like gorilla glue.

I will grow from what you have taught me.

And from that I am.

Free.