I'm holding myself back

If i continue, nothing but regret and shame will follow

Don't you Understand?

With the responsibility i have as a leader, worker, student

I don't have time.

I know i make money for social time but

my social time is consumed by work

On and on that wheel spins.

It won't  stop

Because I can't let it stop

And on top of that i have things to worry about

Family, friends, schedules, college

There just isn't any time for you right now

I'll embrace you when im older

When i'm more mature and wise to know what i'm doing

But i don't

Not right now

I can't let you get in the way of what I need to get done.

Try to understand

that sometimes the busier people become

the more stressed out they get

But im on the edge right now

The pot is boiling

If it goes over.

It spills on the floor and burns everything it touches

I will be gone

And if i must lose something

Its gotta be you

But i'll come back

When i'm ready

On my own terms