My world is falling, crumbling apart, life is meaningless, and that's just the start. My heart is so sore, I can feel it breaking and I swear to God it leaves me shaking. Late at night till early in the morning, I lie in bed eyes wide open. Didn't sleep last night, like all the others, instead I just lie crying in the covers. Quick, wipe away all the tears before they come near.  I must hide this sadness and the feelings of fear. For all they know I'm happy and always smiling, but deep inside my soul is dying. I can feel it rotting, it wants to scream, but I won't let it. Not for the time being. I can never tell them how I feel because they think the happiness I show to them is real. For them to hear that I wish I was dead, it would kill them, they'd be filled with dread. So I'll try my best no to be selfish, I'll keep my secret hidden and just let them rest. But God I can't take it much longer. I'll probably be dead before they even wonder.