I used to search.
Search for happiness
A place that I could feel free
And release the chains of guilt.
I'd search in bottoms of deep, dark pits
Hoping to find a release from pain
Only to find more.
I'd make company with darkness.

Now I know what happiness is
I can finally let go of guilt, sadness, depression
I now say no to evil
But temptation is strong
It haunts me at times
It appears around the corners
Begging me to go the other way
To leave the happiness I know as God

I know what's right and wrong
and I know what I want
I want Jesus.
I want my life to be him.
So why can't I let go of everything?
What's in this world that I won't let go of?
What could possibly be so terrible
that I won't even let my mind know what it is?