I saw my cousin’s dead body during her candle light vision. When my family and I walked in the room family remembers were crying, hurting inside, and some screaming from their pain, that itself made me want to bust out in tears.

“Why did he take you so early!?” my dead cousin’s father screamed with tears falling down his face.

“Only God knows why tio (uncle),” my aunty responded.

As i saw my uncle in severe pain I pictured my cousin’s parents watching their only daughter dying slowly due to cancer eating her alive inside. I imagined they’re pain and saw myself losing one of my brothers or my parents. I actually physically felt pain my heart as these thoughts ran through my mind.

The room was filled with riefs, candle lights,and a slideshow playing pictures of my cousin, The slow sad music playing made me shiver. Everyone that was there were saying a prayer while others were going up there to say they’re last goodbye to her. When it was my family’s turn to go up there where my dead cousin’s body was at, I immediately started to cry. The fact that she was so young and still had a whole lifetime in front of her. Seeing her in a coffin and thinking that it just doesn't “look right” to see her like that.

I didn't want to accept the reality that she's dead. Her body looked like as if she was sleeping, having hope that she’d wake up. What fascinated me was that i was looking at my cousin's dead body without a soul, her body was no longer functioning, and her heart wasn’t pounding.

Seeing a loved one dead made me realize that you never know when you'll be gone. This made me want to value and treat my brothers and parents better. It also made me want to be a better person in general. I’ve grown from this situation because now I show my family more love because we only live once.