Have you ever felt like you had to live up to certain expectations? That you were held to the standard of someone else. Standards you couldn't possibly achieve. I know this feeling better than anyone. I'm the youngest sibling. I have an older sister who is amazing. She's my bestfriend. We happen to be interested in some of the same things. She's always been better than me. I've always known it. She has a better body. She has a cuter personality. She is perfect in social situations. She's just all-around better than I am. Trying to be as good as her is impossible, but people expect that of me without realizing it. They want me to be as friendly as her and to have as good of a boyfriend. To be as good at public speaking and making friends. They want me to be as good at my sport as she is. They want me to go to the same college and make the same choices. They want me to fit into a mold that isn't me. I can't fit into the mold even though I tried. I'm always going to be a little thicker than her. I'll always have an odd personality. I always won't be as open and friendly. I won't have a boyfriend exactly like hers. I'll never be good at public speaking. I won't make friends as easily. I won't go to the same college. I won't make the same choices. I'll always just be me. Second best in most peoples eyes. And that is something I'll have to learn to be okay with.