Every day I try, I try so hard sometimes I think my hands might fall off from all the typing, getting published in teen ink has been the biggest struggle in my life, harder than becoming the most known doctor in the world if I do say so myself. Twenty-five, twenty five times I have tried more than that if you count the pieces which were not accepted to the site, but still nothings happening. Yes I have had one or two essays make the top few of the day, but those go to the site, then disappear no matter how many long hours I spend at my computer typing, coming up with new ideas, never, the belief in my own writing is getting sucked right out of me, why…why…why……….