I tend to daydream a lot, whether it’s from actually wanting to think about something or just spacing out and my thoughts drifting to random subjects. On occasion, my thoughts lead me to think about what my future has in store. Some days my idea of my future is brighter than others, but said topic always make me feel an indescribable mix of excitement and fear. Some days I think I’ll grow to be great, and I’ll be among the top artists working at an animation studio (e.g. Disney or Dreamworks), creating fantastic characters and adventurous stories for people of all ages to fall in love with. Other days I might get worried about such thoughts, wondering where I’ll get the skills to be able to make it that far. The thought that I couldn’t be able to achieve my goals scares me. I desperately want to have a career like I mentioned before, but what would happen if I couldn’t do that? What if I don’t work hard enough for a job at an animation studio and no one hires me? Would I have to get some job crunching numbers in a tiny cubicle with no future whatsoever? How can I avoid this? I know I’m just a sophomore in high school, but sometimes I can’t keep thoughts like this out of my head.

Still, most of the time my thoughts are positive. I tell myself I’ll figure this out in due time, that I’ve gotten this far already and I’ll be able to make it the rest of the way with help from good teachers and my peers. I wonder if everyone else my age feels like this, confused as to whether or not they’ll be able to follow their dreams and get the job they’ve always wanted. I know it’s possible since there are people out there with incredible talent who do these things, but it’s scary to ask yourself if you’re good enough like they are. I suppose all I can do right now is take any opportunities I can to improve my skills and simply dream about my future.