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Why am I really doing this?

July 2, 2010
By writerinfinity PLATINUM, Arlington, Texas
writerinfinity PLATINUM, Arlington, Texas
35 articles 0 photos 105 comments

I close my eyes and think. Is it really worth it, is doing this for someone so distant really worth it? I don’t even know the guy but I’m doing this anyway? That’s what I ask myself, I ask myself if the thing I’m doing is so important.
I’m 23 years old, my name is Alyssa, and I’m doing something life-changing for a man I haven’t been able to talk to. I am donating my kidney.
There’s a 70 year old lying in the hospital bed in a room across the hall. I don’t know him, I’ve never talked to him only his family I have talked to. The family says he’s a good man, and a great grandfather, a wonderful husband, and a great dad. I am compelled to give my kidney to this man, but now as I sit here about to go into prep for the surgery I question myself.
Do I know this man? No, not really, only through what I have heard of him. Do I know what he needs? Yes, he needs me to be kind and loving and give my kidney away. But do I know why I am doing this? No, I think it’s because I am a sweet, generous woman, but every time I think of what I’m doing, there is a tingle inside of me. A tingle of a feeling I can not name. So I sit there and stare at the clock. 30 more minutes until prep for the surgery. 30 more minutes till I give away my 2 kidneys, 30 more minutes to decide why I am doing this.
I sit there, tick tock, tick tock, the clock ticks by, reminding me of what to think about. Why am I doing this? That tingle stay inside me, it won’t go away. Because every second I think about what I am really doing this for.
The clock hits the 25 marker, 5 more minutes.
2, I got it. I know why I am doing this. I am doing this because…

The author's comments:
It gives the reader a chance to think of the answer.

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on Aug. 9 2010 at 7:52 pm
inksplatters21 SILVER, Mason, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"Character is how you live when no one is watching."

interesting story--it allows the reader to put themselves into Alyssa's shoes. 

would u mind reading/commenting on some of my work?  thank you

on Aug. 9 2010 at 11:19 am
Blue4indigo PLATINUM, Sturbridge, Connecticut
24 articles 0 photos 382 comments

Favorite Quote:
I'd rather be sorry for something that I did than for something I didn't do.
-Red Scott

Come on! Please please finish it! This is a great story, and you have achieved your purpose, I am thinking! ;)

By the way, can you read my story, The Whisperer, rate and comment? I'd appreciate it.

on Jul. 20 2010 at 10:07 am
writerinfinity PLATINUM, Arlington, Texas
35 articles 0 photos 105 comments

the ending is the countdown of how many minutes she has left, 3 minutes, 2 minutes,1 minute, 0.  she was going to say why she was doing that, but the she couldn't because she was put to sleep for the surgery

sure i'll read some of ur work

on Jul. 20 2010 at 10:05 am
writerinfinity PLATINUM, Arlington, Texas
35 articles 0 photos 105 comments
thanks for the criticsm, by the way i'm not gonna tell u about the ending, it's supposed to make you think. :)

on Jul. 19 2010 at 1:07 pm
Dancingintherain97, Newport, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
If there is a book you really want to read and it has not been written yet then you must write it. -Toni Morrison


I don't know!  Please tell me! :)  I really like your story, and your right, you are a good writer.  Well, your family is! Haha. anyway, The only thing that I found could be changed was all the I's and slow down a bit and give a little more details.  Other than that: Perfect-o!

on Jul. 18 2010 at 8:00 pm
WritingLoverForever PLATINUM, Bowling Green, Ohio
32 articles 2 photos 198 comments

Favorite Quote:
It's not about success; it's about significance.

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.

This is really interesting. As I read this, I kept trying to figure out why Alyssa was doing this, just like she was. But I don't quite understand the ending. Could you explain it for me? And maybe check out some of my work? Thanks.