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They say writing is therapy, so I had better start cultivating the use of my pen

August 28, 2009
By Juliet Carrington BRONZE, Greensboro, North Carolina
Juliet Carrington BRONZE, Greensboro, North Carolina
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As an experiment,
the doctors gave me a heart for a brain when I was born.
Like the creation of Frankenstein, but with a penchant for singing the blues and the eyes to prove it, “Love” was my first breath, my first step, my first word.
In kindergarten, as we learned mathematics, all I could understand and fathom to the answer for the
equation 1+1 was “love.” And when asked what makes the world go ‘round, it wasn’t the laws of physics or the dynamics of the sun and planets, but love.
“Juliet, what do all humans need to survive?”
“What is the most abundant element in the world?”

But as I’ve grown older, the questions have become more difficult and my answers don’t seem to suffice anymore.
“What is the first step towards dismantling various systems of oppression?” “How do we lessen the gap between the haves and the have nots?”
“Love? Love?”

I have had and have had not, but this four letter word which has been the foundation of not just my existence but my choice to live intentionally, is causing complications in my head and chest (And I’ve
become immune to these pharmecutical heart menders).
"Teach her," but Teacher, I can’t give you the “logical and sensible” answer you want because I’m too emotionally invested in every word that I claim as my own. I
can’t see or understand this cold reality that has been constructed because I was force fed anthems about how there ain’t no mountain high enough to keep me from you and that all you need is love.

These four letters, this one word, this endless story, this
international song- “Love, love, love” has been something I have dreamed of since conception, an obsession for possession that’s never been mine to safely and proudly hold.

But I still think in terms of dedication and converse in regards to vulnerability and openness. I have to believe that “what the world needs now is love sweet love” or else all of these words become senseless and naive, rather than hopeful, optimistic, and willing. I can’t walk around with my hands in my pockets anymore because they are too full with wishing pennies and shooting stars, so I step with my eager fingers, searching for other fingers and smiles and laughter and fragility and hurt and joy and hearts. I have to believe that love is a many splendid thing, that love CAN make these mountains move because even though they say love is blind,
love has proven to be the most effective prescription for my clearer vision.

However, sometimes my sight becomes clouded by a mixture of ingrained insecurity and tears, and I fall. I still have bruises that have yet to fade. But I’ve come to learn that these stumbles, sticks and stones may bruise my heart and break my bones, but love will always
move me
heal me
teach me.

And I’m still learning.

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There is something infinitely healing in the repeated refrains of nature—the assurance that dawn comes after night, and spring after winter. —Rachel Carson

I love this

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on Nov. 14 2020 at 5:04 pm
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But my outside to behold.
Gilded tombs do worms enfold.

This is so beautiful and heartfelt. I loved it! Keep writing!

on Aug. 23 2015 at 7:37 am
TabithaL SILVER, Suffolk, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
"Speak only if it improves upon the silence"- Mahatma Gandhi

This is truely amazing. Your choice of words is so captivating, and your voice is so unique. This is what writing is about. You kept me interested the entire time, and had me hooked from the first sentence. Great job! It was quite far from anything tedious.

on Jan. 29 2015 at 12:46 am
BradyLauze BRONZE, Stratford, Other
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Absolutely amazing, your writing style and diction is so captivating that it just keeps my eyes attached to every word. Fantastic job!

on Oct. 3 2014 at 8:47 pm
Vallichor SILVER, Bloomington, Indiana
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Ah, you write so beautifully! Your emotions play so powerfully throughout your writing. Great job!

on Jul. 28 2014 at 4:48 pm
listeningtostars GOLD, Kirkland, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
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This is probably the best article I have read on this site. I'm absolutley in love with your writing style. 

on Jun. 26 2014 at 6:41 am
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this waspowerful :) awesome work

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on May. 24 2014 at 4:37 pm
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I realy enjoyed this piece! It had a good rhythm and an almost poetic side to it. I found it very engaging and now i'm sad i'ts over... 

on Nov. 6 2013 at 6:54 pm
theblondechick GOLD, Kingsport, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
I want to live and feel all the shades, tones, and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life.
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This was beautiful! I really emjoyed it. You've left me with something  deeper and profound to think about. Great job!

on Aug. 27 2013 at 9:10 pm
RelativetoWriting GOLD, Brecksville, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"Do I contradict myself? Very well, then I contradict myself, I am large, I contain multitudes."
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Wow, what a piece! I enjoy reading the rhythm of your  sentences. 

on Apr. 18 2013 at 5:12 pm
beccalynn1663 GOLD, West Milford, New Jersey
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This is so original! i loved reading it!

on Feb. 22 2013 at 9:14 pm
Emily_96 BRONZE, Lake Worth, Florida
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Poetry in story form. I rarely read a story where someone has mastered it and yet, here I am, reading one of the few. Honestly beautiful, and something everyone can relate to.

on Feb. 22 2013 at 2:27 pm
hudsonbytheday PLATINUM, Toronto, Other
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Wow, you have mastered writing to a theme in a way that is unique. Your style has all the qualities of poetry but in a story

on Sep. 17 2009 at 5:33 am
haana114 PLATINUM, -, Other
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a piece nicely written.very unique too.

on Sep. 16 2009 at 7:08 pm
Jefferson_Aero SILVER, St. Joseph, Missouri
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This, quite blatantly, is the best piece of teenage writing that I have ever read.I will make sure that me LA teacher and all of my friends read this. You are a truely amazing writer, and this piece sent chills down my spine.

ZoeMi BRONZE said...
on Sep. 16 2009 at 2:48 pm
ZoeMi BRONZE, Wernersville, Pennsylvania
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I enjoyed this piece very much. Your writing style is very visual, and it's one of my favorite styles to read.

on Sep. 16 2009 at 1:39 am
Freetorun BRONZE, Prosser, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
"It's not what you are that holds you back, it's what you think you are not." --Denis Waitly

Wow, this is a strong piece. There's a lot to be said in what you're talking about. Continue to use your gift :)