Dear sister,

    You are still too young to understand everything that has happened, but I still have a few things to say. I’ve heard you say you want to be like me, and i know it's meant to be flattering but i’m hoping you don't turn out anything like me. It is very hard being a depressed teenager keeping up with a “normal” life. Because I get attached a little too easily, this has led to much pain in my life, you would think i would’ve learned my lesson seeing as everyone has left me. Avoid being too trusting it’s not always the best quality to have because people do tell lies. Do me a favor and don't worry about boys, the right guy will come along as long as you don't trick yourself into thinking they are all the “right one”. It hurts more in the end if you go searching for love. be careful with yourself and others, you never know what’s going on in someone's life. Take me for example, no knows how sad I was, no one knows exactly what happened in that car. no one noticed the tired eyes and fake smiles. But baby just know that you can talk to me, i may not be with you but i am always here when you need someone to talk to. I love you sister. I’m sorry, maybe one day you’ll understand.

-Big Sister

Dear Mom,

    I’d like to say I got my smarts from you but what i did wasn't very smart was it? i want you to know that i wasn't myself, and now i can never truly be myself again. And i’m sorry, i’m sorry i fell for his tricks, i’m sorry i was so naive, i’m sorry i didn’t ask for help, i’m sorry I messed up. I messed up and I hate myself everyday because of it. In a span of ten days my life changed forever and over the last year it has only continued to haunt me just like it haunts you. And i’m sorry for adding so much to your pain. I’ve been on the falling. On the edge, about to jump. I was pretending to get better but i was only getting worse. I was going to kill myself mom, i wasn’t okay. I’m not okay. I will never fully heal. The cops saved my life that night, much to my dislike. And you have no idea how bad things actually were. I wasn’t me, i’m still not me. And how sad is it that no one noticed. no one even realized. I went off the deep end, i figured hey, maybe this is the solution, i didn’t want you to find my body in the house so maybe he would kill me first. of course that never happened so here we are, a year later. i had nothing to lose, i did it because i was ready to die. something snapped in me long ago and no one knew. Mom please remember that i love you. And although you aren’t the best, you're my mom. i know how hard you try. i want to thank you for dealing with everything and trying to keep us together. mom i'm so sorry, i love and i know i never said it enough but i do. stay strong.

                            -Daughter

Dear Dad,

    hell on earth, we both know what is feels like although our versions of hell are pretty different. there are few things we couldn't ever really relate on. i know it's a lot to take care of us girls so i'm making it easier for you. because i know i've made it a lot harder in the past couple years. i guess i'm trying to say thank you for trying and sorry for not really succeeding. but i don't even think you noticed. hell all you cared about were my grades and what i was doing 24/7. you always searched for something to hate me for and i guess i gave it to you didn't i? i know i'm being hateful but dad you’ve hurt me a lot. just don't think that i hate you, the only person i could ever truly hate is sitting in jail right now. Dad, i'm sorry you had to be the one to come out to the car that night. i'm sorry i went out there in the first place. you always told me you would give me the hard truth so i will repay you with this truth, you are very far from perfect, you did a lot of things wrong. you are a large reason for my sadness. and i hope you learn your lesson because if you f*** up my sister like you f***ed me up then it will haunt you forever. dad you are not all bad, there are some good qualities about you too, you're hard working, dedicated, and a strong leader. i do love you, it's just hard to express it due to our odd relationship. and in a way i am glad for that relationship.i cant say im sorry enough for everything i've done. but i do love you please don't forget that.

                                -Daughter

Dear bestfriend,

    i know you won't believe me but you were the best thing to ever happen to me. we kept each other going. and i want to thank you for always being there for me even when you felt like leaving. even when i asked you to leave. thank you so much for staying. i know it's hard on you. i know you struggle a lot. so did i. please know that i did try to get better, i just couldn't recover from this. i felt obligated to carry the weight and i'm sorry that i can't do that anymore. i want to tell you i am sorry for making you wait for me to come back in. i'm sorry for dragging you into this at all. i'm sorry that it scarred you. i know that it hurt the both of us. but we went through it together and i was blessed in that aspect. you blame yourself but you really shouldn't. i know it's easier to do so, but it's not true. i can not express to you just how sorry i am. and there's nothing i can do to fix it. there's nothing i could do to make things go back to the way before. but i wanted you to know you are an amazing girl and i hope you find someone to love you like i love you. please keep fighting because giving up is hard. there will come a time when you find peace and i hope that time is soon because you deserve it. i made so many mistakes and i do regret some of them. i regret wasting my life away, focusing on the bad things, relying on a piece of metal and a liquor bottle. i most of all what happened, what i did, what he did. you are my best friend and you always will be i'm sorry i lied when i said i wouldn't leave, i tried to stay, trust me. but i failed. just promise you keep fighting. keep going, for me. i'm sorry for everything, thank you for the little bit of good you provided in my life. i love you, goodbye.                                -Bestfriend

Dear thief,

you came almost out of nowhere and it was almost like you knew i was your perfect prey. a sad 15 yr old who didn't know what love was. the perfect opportunity right? because your wife wasn't enough? because you got tired of the struggles your daughter gave you? she was born to a monster and i feel more sorry for her than i do myself. you ruined her life before it even started. and you ruined mine too. why would you ever do what you did? you knew i was 15 you knew i would take the invitation with open arms. because i knew i didn't deserve any better. i didn't see a future for myself so i figured why not? well i know now there's a lot of reasons why not. i forced myself to believe it was okay. but it was far from okay. i forced myself not to vomit every time i go in that car. i had this false idea of happiness that was force fed to me by you. i never should have went out. i left my best friend inside to cover for me, i lied to the police in fear you would do something to me. i pretending i loved it, and then things changed , i started to refuse your touch, i started to say no to the kisses i never wanted. and maybe that reminded you a little too much of your daughter because you hated it. hell who knows it’s not like you have a heart. i just hope you regret it. because you took everything, you took my favorite jacket, my first kiss in the rain, you took my purity, you took my life.

-Your Victim