In my first day and 1st second of my college life, I felt small, unable to accept myself as a person who matters here, it was like seeing the Garden of Eden; glorifying, humongous, so humongous and disorderly that I felt like every step I took it felt like I was an ant crossing the Lombard Street until I finally reached my dorm room, ant it was amazing, everything a kid like me would want; not parents to annoy me, being able to lounge around all day and sleep late at night and the room was neither big nor small, just able to fit myself luggage and not totally cramped, just the way I like it. In the next day I went to my first class, Psychology class, the man looked like a decent teacher, answering questions, asking questions, and not teaching for the 1st few minutes and I never paid much attention to him like all my teachers before him from elementary to high school. What I did pay attention to was the room of it. It was a large class and it looks just like the ones you see in movies, the ones ranging from small to largest, and the students there looks just like every classroom in the world. The front people mostly paying attention to his speeches, the middle group have some, and people like me in the back are paying no attention at all, to us the teacher was saying “blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah”
Late at night after all the classes of mine were done I went out for a walk in school grounds looking at all the groups there and seeing parties already. I walked in one and nobody noticed or cared about it. I drank a few beers and left to my dorm, played on my computer and talked with my friends asking what’s next like we already finished with college.
“What are u going to do next?”
“I unno probably get a job”
“Where though, shouldn’t u get a better plan than that?”
“I really don’t know, might just play with stocks and try to live by with my parents, and you?”
“Me? I plan to become a pilot and same with you, play with stocks but not living with my parents…”
“Cool, so what about your love life?”
“Gah, I don’t know about that, if I found a girl here then I’ll probably marry her, but other than that it’s up to fate to decide.”
After my talk with him I thought about it for a while, then went to sleep cause I the future is scary and complicated and I don’t think I can deal with it now, just going to let thing flow. Because it’s all the same in life, and just like school today and yesterday, no idea what I was so frighten for, since all schools are the same, u go to school and u leave with a bit of knowledge, and I’m sure it will be the same at work, you work and u get a little money each time. It seems college is nothing more than a regular life itself