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Confident MAG

By Anonymous

A sudden breeze swept up the hill like a whispering falcon, brushing my hair over my face in a veil of tangles. A smile spread across my face as I opened my eyes for the first time in a while, taking in the glorious fall sky. The sight was dramatic and soothing at the same time; from the golden blood of a dying sun to the clouds of gray gauze it seeped into, I found it almost impossible to look away.


But even with the muted light and the irresistible natural splendor, there was something even more captivating that called to me. It was the sound of his guitar, a bright tinkling of falling water, that stole my will with a thousand times the intensity of the sweetest siren song. Slowly I surrendered, my eyes confirming the likeness between the sight before me and the one I had fabricated in my mind. He was sitting cross-legged, his slender arms cradling an old acoustic: an animated portrait of true ease. I propped myself up to get a better look at his face and couldn’t help but smile when I found it deep in concentration.

For a moment I only watched and listened, mesmerized by a simple melody that was both familiar and foreign. He stole a glance to see if I was watching, only to quickly look back at the fret board and recover a missed note.

“Since when do you play?” I asked, my smile growing wider.

He took a moment to respond, filling the silence with a bittersweet symphony. “Since you wanted me to.” His smile lit his face for an instant before it hardened in concentration once more.

I frowned. “I don’t remember that. As if you needed another way to upstage me.” My tone was playful, but my thoughts remained serious. Although his playing was far from perfect, having him pick up an instrument was not something I had asked for.

“You wanted me to become more … genuine,” he said softly. “I knew this would be real to you.” He let a final chord ring out, then abandoned the weathered instrument and focused on me.

My lips tightened into a line. “I don’t want to talk about this when I’m here,” I sighed, lying back in the grass. “Let me dwell on this when I’m alone. For now, let’s just –”

“Exist?” he finished, his voice heavy with intimation. A moment passed while we listened to the wind in the nearby trees and searched for words when nothing was meant to be said.

I let out a breath I had been holding and looked at him. His eyes burned into mine, trying to show how much it hurt to remind me. In a desperate attempt to keep my mind busy, I heaved myself up and pulled the silent guitar into my lap. My fingers pulled awkwardly at the strings until they recognized a pattern and prompted the shining wires to keep up, singing a tranquil tune. I wasn’t very good, but I was thrilled when I saw him watching out of the corner of my eye.

“You really should play more,” he said softly, shifting his weight so slightly that I almost didn’t notice. I looked up through my eyelashes for a second.

“I should be doing a lot of things right now. You know how crazy it is. Schoolwork, my jobs, those art projects …” My list could go on. “This, however, this is not one of them.”

I hardly noticed that I had stopped playing.

Somehow I wanted that to hurt him; I wanted for him to say no, he needed me, or that this was all that really mattered. But he just stared with stony sincerity and eyes that burned like dying suns. It made something inside me break.

My heart lurched when I understood: there would be no protest; he would not fight. This was a decision he would have me make alone. I wanted to cry out in agony, for the sole factor of my heartbreak would not be enough for me to abandon my common sense. But a word, one word of encouragement from him, would set my will on the other side.

Knowing that, he remained silent.

For a moment, out of pure desperation I held my breath to see if he would fold. Maybe at the last minute he would murmur the words that I so severely needed to hear. But after the coldest silence I could imagine, we both knew the decision I would be walking away with.

I swallowed hard and lowered my eyes from his face, terrified by my sudden urge to lose control. Time raced against me with a mocking grin as I stood quickly; I couldn’t allow myself to change my mind.

I ached to leave him with some kind of parting gesture, but I only yanked the guitar from the ground and let my footsteps take me away. Perhaps I turned back to look at the field once I reached its end, just where the grass sprouts through the frayed edge of the ribbon of road. It’s possible that my eyes scanned the golden horizon for a moment longer than absolutely necessary, making sure of my decision.

But I’m sure I would have seen nothing more than I expected to see: a lonely wind combing through an empty, dying field.


My lungs pulled in a gasp of stale air that did little to satisfy the ache that wracked my body in the form of frantic heartbeats. Fire pulsed through my veins to pool in my fingertips and toes while I struggled against the millions of invisible restraints holding me to the bed. I opened my stubborn eyes to the dull light that streamed wearily through my window and strained to loosen my joints one by one.

Good morning.

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on Mar. 16 2012 at 12:51 pm
Wow this is amazing!!!! you should keep writing and do not let anyone bring you down. i really love you're writing!

on Feb. 1 2012 at 6:11 pm
Passion4 PLATINUM, Ponte Vedra, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"Real life sucks losers dry. If you want to f*** with the eagles, you gotta learn to fly." -Heathers

This is the best story i have ever read. The word choice was brilliant and the entire piece flowed effortlessly across the page. Almost as if the words just- BELONGED there and nowhere else. i literally could read this 1000 times and not be tired of it yet! I hope that someday i can ahieve the beautiful gift that you have obviously not only been given, but rightfully earned.

on Feb. 1 2012 at 8:28 am
ImagineBlueRoses SILVER, Derby, Kansas
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Favorite Quote:
Were it not for music, we might in these days say, the Beautiful is dead.

Omigosh this was sad :( dramatically realistic however. I'm still working on getting this good!

on Dec. 19 2011 at 4:45 pm
MarissaWhitecloud SILVER, Oskaloosa, Iowa
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Loved this article. Very well structured and detailed.

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on Jul. 18 2011 at 11:07 am
TAR11 SILVER, Allison Park, Pennsylvania
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Very Cool!  Please check out my stories if you get the chance.

on Nov. 18 2010 at 5:32 pm
Jesse-Marie- PLATINUM, Freehold, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
"To love is to live. Without love, what is life?"

Very good writing :) Keep it up. I might of not gotten the full meaning of the first paragraph, but still amazing!

mads942 SILVER said...
on Aug. 22 2010 at 8:12 pm
mads942 SILVER, Houston, Texas
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I loved how fluid all of your sentences were...fantastic job.

Chloe_ BRONZE said...
on Jul. 31 2010 at 6:36 pm
Chloe_ BRONZE, San Antonio, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Never underestimate the power of doing the ordinary in quite extraordinary ways.

it was super good i loved it

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on Jul. 31 2010 at 2:45 pm
Coffee BRONZE, Tallahassee, Florida
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Your Face.

It was cool, and very well written!

Please check out my work!! :)

on Jun. 17 2010 at 7:19 pm
Amsterdamsel DIAMOND, Henderson , Nevada
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really great, very beautiful,  not sure i really understood it, but good anyway!

on May. 26 2010 at 8:25 pm
cyanidesun BRONZE, Atascadero, California
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Favorite Quote:
It is the eye of ignorance that assigns a fixed and unchangeable color to every object; beware of this stumbling block. -Paul Gauguin

Absolutely beautiful. I completely understood it without you having to scream it in my face. Your sense of pacing, imagery, and subtlety are truly amazing.  

on May. 26 2010 at 6:55 pm
haventy0uheard PLATINUM, Kings Park, New York
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This is so powerful and simply amazing :)

on May. 26 2010 at 10:14 am
MayaChristine GOLD, Stocksfield, Other
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This is awesome! You are an amazing writer! I didn't quite understand the ending, but it'll keep me thinking!!!

on May. 4 2010 at 10:20 pm
Alice_in_Wonderland GOLD, San Clemente, California
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Favorite Quote:
“I could give up, I could stay stuck, or I could move on, So I put one foot front of the other, No no no nothing’s gonna break my stride, “ –David Archuleta (The Other Side of Down)

This is really great! I loved the emotion and the hurt that the girl felt and how the guy was so calm and romantic.

on May. 4 2010 at 7:38 pm
lexrex95 BRONZE, Littleton, Colorado
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Favorite Quote:
\"The world needs your beautiful light, so shine on!\"

this is really good but a little hard to follow

on May. 4 2010 at 4:10 pm
emilyjoe DIAMOND, Algonquin, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
"What if the person in the puddle is real, and you're just a reflection?" -Calvin & Hobbes

this is so good! (:

on May. 4 2010 at 8:07 am
chartothalatte GOLD, Cleveland Heights, Ohio
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great piece! not sure i exactly understood it, but it was still very good! (:

on Apr. 12 2010 at 9:10 pm
hyp0allergenic SILVER, Woodhaven, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
“I believe in everything until it’s disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it’s in your mind. Who’s to say that dreams and nightmares aren’t as real as the here and now?” -John Lennon

Wow, that was beautiful. You're so good with imagery.

on Apr. 12 2010 at 2:50 pm
CrystalDE PLATINUM, Concord, North Carolina
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I loved this, it reminds me of someone that used to be close to me and they played guitar all the time.

on Mar. 21 2010 at 7:10 pm
Meavescrete SILVER, Potomac, Maryland
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this is really good