I crouch on my bed tears streaming down my face. A million thoughts run through my head. Why must I be tortured so? You stay away from me and I crave your smile. Yet when you are with me I want out. I loathe you, I detest you. I sob harder as a new wave of tears cascade down my cheeks. Walk away and I still desire your hugs. Why I continue this, I don’t know. Hurt me, and I yearn for that twinkle in your eye. I ache for your warmth, thirst after your love. I cannot be with you, but I can never walk away. We were once dancing to the same tune seamlessly, and now what have we become? Clunky robots moving on different melodies. We are two opposing forces hanging on for love. I want to let go, move on, and live without your presence. Your presence, it hangs over me like a dark shadow. It never lets me go without me running back. Love has warped me in a queer way. I hate this. All of it. I take a long breath of air and release it making a pained gasp. I flop down on my bed as painful thoughts float through my mind. You would never understand my heartbreaking pain. You never did nor will you ever. I love you every second of everyday, with all my heart and soul, but alas, it hurts, but I know you never will.