Hole in Everyday


The last thing I remember was falling asleep with the love of my life, but I know now that I am waking up next to a stranger. When I wake I roll over hoping that maybe A was able to stay, but knowing that he hadn’t. Brendan rolls over and looks at me with wonder. I know he can’t remember how I got here or who I am, but I am going to try and make the best of it.
I look at him and say “Hi, my name is Rihannon.”
“Hi, my name is Brendan. Would you mind telling me what is going on?”
“Well, I can tell you but you probably won’t believe me.”
“Try me.”
I began to tell him my story. How the love of my life switched from body to body every night at 12. I told him that it was kind of like a blind date because my best friend and love left me here with Brendan because he thought we would be good together. Then I chuckled because I knew it was nothing like that, I was just trying to lighten the mood. The whole time I was telling this story he stared at me like I was an insane woman who sneaked into his house. When I finally finished I looked at him to see what he was thinking, but I couldn’t tell.
“Are you serious?”
“Yes I am serious, I wish I wasn’t but I am. I don’t know what you were expecting, but this is all I have to say. You didn’t get drunk and meet me at a party this is how it happened.”
“Okay. Well I don’t know how you will ever be able to prove that to me, but I will go along with it because I don’t think anyone could make something like that up.”
“Well, good I am glad you don’t think I am crazy.”
“Oh no I do, but like I said I am going to go along with it.”
For the next few weeks Brendan and I began to hangout more and more often. He eventually got over the fact that he thought I was crazy, and began to like me. He asked me on my first formal date three weeks after we met. It was so cute he got down on one knee and said “Rihannon will you go out with me?” of course I said yes. I haven’t felt this loved since A. I have never thought I was worth much but Brendan makes me feel like I am worth more than the world.
For the next few years we continued to date, and then the big day came. We had just graduated from Harvard together, and he was finally ready. I had felt this coming for a while but it just hadn’t been the right time. Brendan got down on one knee, just like he had done when he asked me out the first time.
The tears began to flow from my eyes as Brendan asked, “Rihannon Elizabeth Prior I have loved you for years. I have loved you since the first time I met you in my bed (he winks), and I will love you till I die. I have never been as happy as I am when I am with you, and now that we are finished with school I think the timing is finally right. Will you marry me?”
“I WOULD LOVE TOO!”
We planned the wedding for December, because we both love winter weddings. So we only had a four months to plan the whole wedding. This was the most stressful time of my life, but I knew when the day finally came that it would totally be worth it.
The day was finally here, and I have never been more excited for anything. I was about to marry the man I love, but in the back of my mind I couldn’t help but think about A. Where he was, what he was doing, and if he still loved me. As I walked down the aisle to Brendan, the love of my life; I couldn’t help but notice one person in particular. I had never seen this person before, but I knew who it was. I continued to walk down the aisle to my love, and this stranger who wasn’t really a stranger began to sob. I continued with the vows, and we were officially married.
At the after party I saw the stranger once again, and I walked up and said “Hi.”
“Hi, how have you been?”
“I have been fine A.”
“I am glad that you are finally happy. I can tell that you are finally happy with who you are, and can see that you believe that you are truly beautiful; and that’s all I ever wanted for you. I am sorry that I came, but I saw the announcement in the newspaper, and I couldn’t help myself. I will always love you.”
“I am glad you came, and you know that I never stopped loving you; and I wish that we could have worked out but we can’t. We can be friends though.”
“Okay, friends is better than nothing. I am not sure I can continue to be alone much longer.”
“Okay. Would you like to dance?”
“I would love too.”