“I don’t want to go to school today.” Those were the words of Sabrina Smith, a girl that lived in a small town called Shelby, North Carolina. She always believed she lived in a cruel world with all the hate coming from her peers, teachers, family, etc. She didn’t want to go to school because she knew everyone would make fun of what she has done in the past.
Sabrina moved here when she was about 9 years old, she has been very ecstatic about joining a new school, a fresh start. Everything was going to be great she thought, until the most horrible day of her life approached and she felt like her entire life was over...
It was one Friday night, and Sabrina was invited to the most popular party of the whole school year, it was going to be great. She had arrived at the party with her pink fluttery dress and a pair of nude high heels. She had wanted to impress a lot of people at this party, and she wanted to make a good first impression before school started back on Monday. She entered the house; everyone was either smoking, dancing, eating, or talking to students. As, she walked through the crowd helplessly, she bumped into someone, she looked up and it was the high school jock Derrick Williams he was 6’3, 185 pounds of pure muscle, he was an attractive baseball player of our school’s baseball team The John J. Mega Stars. At first, I didn’t look back into his eyes, I just looked down at his Nike Free Runs that he was wearing that night, which he always wore to school. His broad sensational voice made my stomach flutter as if there were a million butterflies. She couldn’t find the words to come out of her mouth. What could she say?! “H-Hey. Derrick right?” He smiled at me and I could see his pearly white teeth, and he replied “Yes, and you’re Sabrina Smith.” I smiled like an idiot, he was the total package at John J. High School, and everyone wanted to be with him because he was so popular. He had the best parties, his dad was the founder of Apple, and his mom was a professional cook for Food Network. I breathed in, smelled his amazing cologne on his body. “God he is such an amazing creature on this Earth, and he’s talking to me!” He stared at me up and down; I look back at him and blushed extremely hard. I was so nervous I could not find the right words to say to him, I thought I would make a fool out of myself. But, finally I found the bravery to say something, before I could say something; someone had bumped into me and I basically fell into Derrick’s arm. He caught me instantly; I didn’t want to leave his arms I felt like that was where I belonged. Right there in his arms, never leaving. He lifted me up a little, but didn’t let go of me. He smiled at me again and said “Maybe we should get out of here, go get a bite of eat?” I shook my head like an idiot, and blushed extremely hard. He took my hand, and I we walked out the house.
We walked to his car, down the road from the house about a block and a half away. He opened the door up for me, and closed it. He was a total gentleman to me, and I loved it. He treated me with respect, which I haven’t had in my past relationships at my old school. He was special to me already, and I just met him like 5 minutes ago. I entered the car, and immediately looked around it was an Infiniti Q50 black everything. His scent of the amazing Hollister cologne filled the car when he slides into the car behind the steering wheel. I quickly put my on my seatbelt, and I look over and see him looking at me. I smile, and look back at him. Then he starts the car, and he puts on his seatbelt. He took a long time to get out of his parking spot at first, but then we were out and headed to get a bite to eat. We arrived at Taco Bell, which is my favorite fast-food place, he knows me well already. He got out the car, walked to my side of the vehicle and opened my door slowly, showing off that amazing smile of his again. He reached his hand out to me, I took his hand and he pulled me out gently, and closed my door. Then we walked towards Taco Bell, he opened the door slowly for me. I said “Thank-you.” And he just nodded, and smiled at me; we walked into Taco Bell and went to the cashier. She was already ready to take our order. She said “Welcome to Taco Bell, what will you be having today?” I look at Derrick and he said “Ladies first.” And smirked. I ordered a quesadilla and a diet Pepsi. Then he quickly ordered something for him. The cashier put our order in and said “Your total today is $12.80” I quickly reached for my purse, and he held my wrist and said “That’s ok; it’s all on me beautiful.” I was not sure at first, because I didn’t want to make a bad impression; he might think that I might not be able to pay for the things that I have got. But I put my hand beside my side slowly, and looked at him get his wallet and hand her the money. She clicked and typed in the cashier, and handed him his change back. She went to the back for a minute, and returned back with our tray of food. He grabbed it, and walked to a booth in the back. I followed behind him, and sat across him. He looked at me, before the food. I blushed extremely hard. He said “You’re so beautiful. Where are you from again?” I told him: “I’m from a small town in Massachusetts.” He looked at his food, and got it. He smiled very wide. “Well that’s cool.” I’m glad that you moved down her. I hope we can be very close this year, don’t you?” I wanted to jump out the booth and start jumping up and down right when those words slipped out of his mouth. But I didn’t, I kept control of myself and just smiled. He opened up his food, and began eating, and so did I. I ate slowly; I didn’t want him to think I was a big fat pig that likes to stuff her face all the time. I wanted to look sophisticated. He finished his food after about 10 minutes; I was completely full after that quesadilla I felt like I was going to bust right in front of him. He stood up, and got all the trash and went to the disposal area, and threw away all of our trash. He came back to the booth, still standing up and said “Are you ready? We can go to my house if you’d like. We could watch some movies.” I nodded my head. And I got up out of the booth, and stood in front of him. He looked into my eyes for a little. I thought in my head “Am I already falling for this guy? I can’t. I don’t even have a chance with him.” Then I walked off, out of Taco Bell smirking. I went to his car, and waited for him to come and unlock his car. I looked at him, as soon as he approached the car. He reached for the handle in front of me, and opened it up slowly. I entered the car; it was really cold that night. So the leather seats of his Infiniti Q50 were cold as all get out. He slid behind the steering wheel, and started the car. He turned on the seat heaters, and my butt was soon warm as ever. It felt so good, so hot and warm in here with Derrick Williams. The amazing jock, of John J. High School. It was still so hard to realize that I was actually in his car. But, I got used to it. He drove to his house which was a big mansion in the neighborhood of Woodbridge; only the richest of rich kids live in this neighborhood. Not many people that I knew lived in this neighborhood. Well, no one I was friends with lived in this neighborhood. Derrick was the first one. “Wait, is he even my friend?” That question had been in my head the whole night with him. “What if he’s using me or something?” I hoped and prayed that he was actually trying to be my friend because he knew I was new to this school, and barely had any friend whatsoever.
He pulled into his drive-way; we walked into the house and went up to his room. There were so many stairs; I was literally out of breath when we reached his bedroom. He opened his door to his room, and it was so freaking huge, I thought I could lose myself in this room. He sat on the bed, staring at me a different way than usual. He looked at me kind of scary. He patted the bed mattress spot right beside of him. I walked over to sit beside him, I sat slowly and he rubbed my leg slowly. He slowly moved his hand to my inner thigh. I got really uncomfortable right then and there. He looked me in my eyes, I saw his hand reaching for my shirt. He moved it up slowly into my shirt. I felt so dirty, I said “Derrick, what are you doing?” He said “Shh, everything will be fine. I won’t hurt you” And he smiled very widely. Next thing I know he layed me onto the bed, and he hovered over me and held me down to the bed. I was so uncomfortable at that time. I said “No Derrick, stop. Don’t hurt me, please.” Then he started to unzip his pants. I watched him. He had a nasty smirk on his face; I thought it was the devil at first. I didn’t like how this was going. I thought he was a good guy; he treated me with so much freaking respect. He cannot do this to me. The word of what he was about to do to me wouldn’t slip through my lips. I tried not to do it. That was when he started to rip my closed off, He was very aggressive. Then finally I yelled “Derrick, please don’t rape me. Please don’t hurt me. Please.” He wasn’t listening to me at all; we were completely naked by then. I tried to fight him off, but he only got more aggressive with me. He held me down by my wrists with his arms. The pressure against my wrists was so strong, it was no way in hell I was ever going to escape his grip. I was so scared. I tried to kick him off of me, anything could help. But it was so useless of me even trying. He had already had me. Next thing I know, the lights go out and my eyes close. I couldn’t take the pain, it was so excruciating. Tears rolled down my eyes, I wanted this to end. I wanted the whole world to end, everything. I wanted my life to end. I didn’t want to be on this earth anymore. I didn’t want to live anymore, I felt so dirty. I finally woke up; I looked at the end of the bed. He was standing there, looking at me very sexually. I was scared for my life. He smirked at me and said “That was amazing. Didn’t you like it?” I shook my head so angry. “NO. I didn’t enjoy that! You raped me; you’re going to Hell for this!” A small laugh came out of his mouth and he said “Will you be there? I think that will be amazing.” I shook my head, why would he do this to me? Me. Sabrina Smith, the girl from a small town in Massachusetts. “Why me?” I finally found the nerve to finally talk. “Take me home he said.” He got my clothes and threw them at me. He said “I think you should walk, it’s my bed time. I can’t take you home, it’s after my hours. Now scram.” Tears immediately took over; I got my clothes and put them on quickly, and rushed out the house. I ran home as fast as I could, not even looking back. I thought he was a great guy. I thought he was the one to always treat a girl with respect. I ran home, opened the door with the key and ran up to my room. I was so freaking mad at him. “HOW COULD HE DO THIS TO ME?! DID HE USE PROTECTION?!” It was then that I had found myself shaking, sweating, and breathing hard. I was having panic attacks. My anxiety was so high, I couldn’t think right. I couldn’t get the scene out of my mind. My life was completely over, and I knew that now. I don’t think he even used protection. I closed my eyes slowly. I started to pray to God, that he used protection.
I went to sleep; I didn’t want to wake up until Monday. I don’t even think I was going to go back to school on Monday; I don’t want to show my face. Rumors would have already been going around, false rumors at that. He could say that I actually liked it, he could say that I was begging for it. But he and I are the only one that knows that I was not enjoying not even a single minute of him hurting me. He wanted to hurt me, he didn’t care about me. All the gentleman things he did, we just an act. So he could earn my trust. And I let him in, I let my walls down. I usually don’t have my walls down, because I am always getting hurt by people that I think care about me. But in the end that hurt me, and I am depressed and back to my old ways.
Saturday and Sunday, passed by very fast. I hate that; I wanted the weekend to go by as slow as it could go. I didn’t want the weekend to end. I didn’t want to go to school. But I knew that my mom would force me to go, because she would give me a lecture of how I should be responsible, and how I need to go to school every single day. I didn’t want to hear any of that. So I decided to go. Maybe after all Derrick kept his mouth shut.
I was so wrong about coming to school. Just like I thought the rumors had started. Numerous ones were going around. Different ones were going around. Everyone would give me those nasty-looking faces at me, looked at me like I was not even human, like I wasn’t hurt. That morning, I walked to my locker slowly looking at my feet and not looking up. I had my books close to my chest. I turned the corner to go to my locker then I stopped. There he was at my locker, Derrick… I looked at him, and then looked away. I walked up to my locker, and started to turn it to put my combination in. He looked at me and said “Hey.” I didn’t say anything. I was too concentrated on the lock, I couldn’t get it up. My hands were sweating extremely hard right now, and my hands started to shake which make it so much harder to put my combination in. I didn’t want to talk to him. I wanted to open this dang locker, get my books, and walk away. I had nothing to say to him whatsoever. I didn’t want to talk to him, after the way he treated and talked to me that Friday night that I was so disrespectful on his part. I finally got my lock to open, and I opened my locker. I quickly got my books; he was still right beside me. He stood in front of my locker; I moved him out my way and said “Can you just leave me alone, Derrick?” He looked down and said “Look, I am here to say sorry. Can you please forgive me?” I looked at him, I was so furious. I said “Did you seriously just ask for me to forgive you? Do you know what you did to me?! Do you not remember? Lucky for me, I do. You raped me, I will NEVER forgive you.” He looked at me and smirked and said “You’re such a whore, I’m glad I did it. And I’m sure everyone would love to know about it.” And he walked off. I wanted to cry right then and there. I wanted to run home, I wanted to run anywhere at that moment. I wanted to leave this world; I can’t believe I was so stupid to actually trust him. It was my mistake. Because in high school you should never trust anyone, they will turn against you in 5 seconds just like that. And don’t ever tell them any of your secrets; they will use them against you.
I walked to the rest of my classes, with no problems. So, I guess it hasn’t got around…yet. I was so scared to come back to school tomorrow. But I have to, I have to face my fears and fight against them. I have to fight back. I can’t be afraid anymore.
The next day, I arrived at school I was so nervous I didn’t even want to look at anyone. I walked into the school, and suddenly it got all quiet and everyone stared at me. I walked through the crowd slowly, holding my book bag closely. I started to hear hurtful words while I walked past everyone like “Skank” , “Whore” , “Tramp” , etc. Suddenly I felt sick, I ran to the bathroom. I ran into a stall quickly and out came my breakfast I had the morning and something yellow and mucus. I started to think about what it could be. I reached into my backpack and pulled the pregnancy test out slowly, I took it out the box shaking so hard. I didn’t want to even know. I took the test, and I sat down on the toilet and waited. 20 minutes had pasted, and then I picked the pregnancy test back up and looked at it. There it was, I couldn't believe it. I couldn't even think at that moment. I, Sabrina Smith was pregnant and Derrick Williams was the father…