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And I remember she wouldn’t wake up.
Her lips were mushed together in a
Horrible shade of red
They buried my mother in a white dress
And red lips.
And she couldn’t see.
Where are your glasses, Mommy?
And still at sixteen I bring them to my face
And peer through the distorted murky lenses
To see what she saw
Maybe one day …
And I remember it hitting me
Like it does every day
When I hear them all talk and complain about their
“Horrible” mothers
What’s it like to have a mother
I’d give anything to know,
Or at least for them to know how lucky they are.
They know.
And I remember she wouldn’t sit up
And I dreamed of a stuffing machine because
Someone whispered by my ear she was
Cut in half and stuffed
And it made no sense
And still at sixteen I wonder
What happened to my mother?
And I remember her faintly
She doesn’t even smile in my dreams anymore
And I wonder if she’ll ever be proud of me
If she’d ever approve of me
And who I’ve become
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve done
And I remember her singing
Though I can’t hear her voice
The only happy Christmas I hold on to
Every year
Maybe one day it’ll come back
I used to think
Maybe one day she’d come back
And still at sixteen I hope
Maybe one day she’ll come back …
And I remember she wouldn’t wake up
Not even to say good-bye.

This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. This piece has been published in Teen Ink’s monthly print magazine.

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ali W. said...
May 11, 2009 at 1:12 am
you are a great writer. and i love your poem. your mom would be proud of you
msz_lady_bon_bon said...
May 8, 2009 at 11:47 pm
i really enjoyed this poem. it was really sad. i can actually say that i can relate to this but instead of my mother it was my dad. but he didn't die. he was arrested when i was super young. i don't even know what he looks like. i'm sorry though. but this is really good. keep writing
Whisper said...
May 8, 2009 at 6:21 pm
I like the poem because it talks about the girl life.
Brndi said...
May 7, 2009 at 8:22 pm
this one i can relate to... i lost my mom at a young age and i can tell you now that i hardly remember any of the happy memories.. very good poem keep writing!! said...
May 6, 2009 at 9:50 pm
wow this is incredible. I am speechless.
ronaldo'sgirl23 said...
May 6, 2009 at 3:21 am
this poem made me cry. it was heartfelt and felt real and i find it somewhat inspiring.
Sasukexmexlovin said...
May 5, 2009 at 10:45 pm
Very beautiful, it acully puts a point of view of millions of daughters/Sons who don't know what it feels like to not have a mother. for me a father, Which this is how he died. And I was young. Write more ^_^
~*~Helen~*~ said...
May 5, 2009 at 4:54 pm
This Poem is very Beautiful I loved it. I feels so powerful and Sincere.

Please go check out my poems :):)!!

Gabbi A. said...
May 4, 2009 at 11:51 am
This is really filled with emotion and I love how you wrote it. You gave it real meaning. Niceeee job!!
Alik_=) said...
May 2, 2009 at 9:22 pm
this is a beautiful piece! I luved it!
I could use some help with mine if anyone could help me critique it!
despurlock said...
May 2, 2009 at 2:11 am
That is beautiful. Truly and wholly. I can relate, which makes it even more breathtaking. Phenomenal.
Anna-Marie M. said...
May 1, 2009 at 9:34 pm
I can sort of relate, becuase my great-grandmother died when I was about four..I was really, really close to her..Saw her literally every day..The poem, like those before my comment said, draws you in, not knowing what to expect..Very deep, and very good.
Alexis P. said...
May 1, 2009 at 3:42 pm
That was passion I feel what you are sayin I lost my grandmother and she was like a mother to me to and I felt the same way you feel I still feel like that but keep doing what you doing and let your feeling out
Michelle R. said...
Apr. 27, 2009 at 10:34 pm
this is incredible and moving. you're a great writer. i can't relate, but i have seen people very close to me lose their mothers, at a young age and at an older age. the piece captured my attention because of the vague title- i liked it. it drew me in, yet i had no idea what to expect. and i definitely don't regret reading this.
gbautista95 said...
Apr. 26, 2009 at 12:26 am
ok this poen is beautiful i really do like it. great job! keep writing!
Dani P. said...
Apr. 25, 2009 at 3:31 am
this really touched my heart.
its amazing.

your work is beautiful.
volleyball14 said...
Apr. 24, 2009 at 4:23 am
this is amazing, good job, keep writing!
Abbie said...
Apr. 23, 2009 at 2:14 am
very nice!
LilJ<3 said...
Apr. 22, 2009 at 11:16 pm
wow...this really moved me. you were so sincere and honest, i love that. this poem stirred all kinds of emotitons inside me...please, continue to write, your work is BEAUTIFUL.
blackamethyst said...
Apr. 22, 2009 at 9:36 pm
this is incredibly moving and provides a very different point of view. i love how you start with the word "and" it caught my attention right away. please keep writing
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