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Chaos Theory MAG

November 14, 2008
By Anonymous

Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
So
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.



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on Sep. 13 2010 at 2:15 pm
Inflatable_Corn SILVER, Odessa, Florida
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Amazing. The emotional impact is astonishing.

inspir3d GOLD said...
on Sep. 13 2010 at 8:36 am
inspir3d GOLD, Norcross, Georgia
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We're all just looking for attention, to be discovered overnight. We're all frustrated by the popular ones that claim the limelight before they fall to pieces. So many of us are stuck under the radar--what makes me different? You decide!

Wow.

Breathtaking.

Absolutely incredible!

it's refreshing to read something like this that actually causes you to react. very, very good.


on Sep. 10 2010 at 9:20 am
tes1634 PLATINUM, Olive Hill, Kentucky
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wow, this is amazing. i read it and i thought dang this girl should write a book. i looooooove everything about it. thank you so much.

on Aug. 23 2010 at 7:37 pm
break.shatter.new SILVER, Union City, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
"If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were."
When I lost my only love, my mother sat next to me and said these words to me. So now I live by them.

It doesn't take much to know when great writing is right in front of you, and this was certainly beautiful. Keep on writing :)

on Aug. 22 2010 at 9:38 pm
WanderingChild13, Riverton, New Jersey
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i've been rendered speechless by this

 

i've read it five times.

 

i love it. thank you.


on Aug. 22 2010 at 12:11 pm
MelanieLouise PLATINUM, Plymouth, Minnesota
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Favorite Quote:
to live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong

i love how you wrote it. its breathtakingly beautiful. great great work. keep writing, Mel :)

on Aug. 22 2010 at 10:32 am
Marlyre PLATINUM, Kalamazoo, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"when you cry, do you waste your tears?" Madonna

this leaves the mind to fill in the blanks... good job! read some of mine?

on Aug. 6 2010 at 1:26 pm
EscapeVelocity GOLD, Moro, Illinois
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beautiful  piece of work

i am usually not one to ask other people by comment but i could use some opinions on my work

 


on Jul. 31 2010 at 10:22 am
BrandieTamerian BRONZE, Oak Park, Michigan
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this is great, it felt really personal. Good job!!!!

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on Jul. 24 2010 at 2:55 pm
This is beautiful-- gave me shivers! I like the way your poem reads almost like you are stringing your sentences together without pause. It gives it a kind of urgent tone. 

on Jul. 10 2010 at 5:22 pm
lindseyk23 SILVER, Gardner, Massachusetts
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you're beyond talented, this brought me to tears. great job.

on Jul. 10 2010 at 11:29 am
EbonyJade BRONZE, Bronx, New York
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wow . that was beyond amazing. i loved every second of it .

on Jul. 9 2010 at 3:24 pm
Stargirl212 GOLD, Atlanta, Georgia
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Favorite Quote:
"No matter how dark the sky, you'll always have the stars."

This is amazing. Very deep but very real. Great job!

on Jul. 9 2010 at 12:59 pm
poeticspirit12334 PLATINUM, Groesbeck, Texas
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Wearing a Christian T-shirt, and a cross necklace does NOT make you a Christian. , "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord "They are plans to give you a hope and a future.'' Jeremiah 29:11

i really love all of the metaphores and symalies(lolz spelling) but anyway... it was a very intresting poem to read... the kind you want to read over and over again.! great job!!

on Jul. 9 2010 at 10:00 am
Valkeryie BRONZE, Okc, Oklahoma
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very good.  beautiful word choice, beautiful way of capturing a few moments in a day.  it goes through so many emotions at once, and then closes perfectly.  i'm glad they chose it for the magazine; this poem totally deserved it.

 

 

-Val


on Jul. 9 2010 at 12:13 am
secretdancer22 GOLD, Webster Groves, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
"Hidden cry's are beneath every smile"
-Jordon Himmler

This is a beutiful poem and the words fit amazingly i love your strategy. ou should check out some of my work

on Jul. 1 2010 at 8:54 pm
haventy0uheard PLATINUM, Kings Park, New York
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this is so beautiful and captivating. definetely one of my favorites:)

on Jun. 17 2010 at 11:02 pm
VandaNoon PLATINUM, West Pittston, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
what i can remember
is a lot like water
trickling down a page
of the most beautiful colors
-Marie Digby 'Unfold'

This poem is haunting in all the ways good poetry should be.  I loved the run-on sentence sort of feel to it, almost like you were out of breath writing it, like there's a desperation to it.

on Jun. 17 2010 at 8:54 pm
starxoxo23 PLATINUM, New Hampshire, New Hampshire
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Favorite Quote:
"The creative is the place where no one else has ever been. You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover is yourself."
- Alan Alda

wow this is really good but soooo tragic. it almost made me cry.

on Jun. 17 2010 at 8:33 pm
poeticraze BRONZE, Edgewood, Maryland
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beautifully written;)

ur a great writer