Fitting In MAG

By MonicaMS BRONZE, Providence, Rhode Island
MonicaMS BRONZE, Providence, Rhode Island
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I wouldn't ask for a dressing room. My mom always asked for me.
The evening before I had repeatedly risen from my seat and piled on excess noodles suffocated in meat sauce. Then I licked my bowl with the buttered garlic bread, leaving no evidence of the four servings I had inhaled. In the morning I would be forced to lie on my bed and suck in my stomach just to button my jeans. I dreaded school shopping. The sale rack, with its slender size markers, knew my number continued to bloat.

I learned how to eat from my dad: fast and without thinking. In our house, the dinner table involved battle, with the children on defense. One false move and our dinner would be snatched off our plates without warning and gobbled up by our father faster than we could blink. We soon learned to keep a hand up while devouring our chicken strips, and if Mom decided to cook that night we needed to hurry and get seconds before it was gone.

Only one pair of jeans I tried on fit. I lied and told my mother I could button every pair but only needed the jeans that lay guarded in my hands. We walked to the checkout.

I kept my head down as we passed a group of girls. They whispered. I glanced up only long enough to know my place. Their eyes cut at me, hands cupped over their mouths in secrecy.

***

The recess bell rang and I followed two girls in my third grade class out past the monkey bars to the fenced grassy area. We all wore the same clothes that year: khaki pants and polo shirts. Everyone was the same, or that was the idea.

“I like your pants. Where did you get them?” Marcy asked Alicia. I nodded in agreement, thankful they had removed their cupped hands and I could hear the conversation.

“Really? I like yours better,” Alicia replied.

“We should trade. What size are you?” Marcy asked.

“I don't know …” Alicia said, finding the tag in the back of her pants. “Seven.”

“Me too,” Marcy said.

***

I hid in line as I held the jeans, tag folded in so nobody could see the number inscribed on it was 12. I am not a size seven.



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Ellea SILVER said...
on Oct. 31 2016 at 4:01 pm
Ellea SILVER, Touchet, Washington
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I can relate so much! Though I probably don't go through exactly the same struggles.

po0patin3 said...
on Oct. 1 2014 at 12:53 pm
po0patin3, Houston, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"when life's worth living, it's worth recording"

:/   

on Jun. 4 2014 at 2:34 pm
Caitibug SILVER, Powell, Tennessee
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Omg, this article is amazing! I can so relate.

on Apr. 21 2014 at 9:00 am
this is an amazing article it is written well and i know what you feel

on Mar. 8 2014 at 8:34 am
Lady.J.xoxo GOLD, Winston Salem, North Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
"live your life, don't let life out live you"

Amazing! Definetly can relate 

. said...
on Jul. 23 2013 at 9:42 pm
This article was beautiful. And I have insecurities about my body too. Maybe not in the same way... but I understand what you are saying.

James6737 said...
on Apr. 30 2013 at 4:00 pm
Well I looked and looked and read and read this comment and I like it

on Apr. 26 2013 at 1:43 pm
Malorie PLATINUM, Des Moines, Iowa
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Favorite Quote:
"So shines a good deed in a weary world."

Simpley amazing.

on Jan. 28 2013 at 2:38 pm
HiddengoldTee SILVER, Brooklyn, New York
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Favorite Quote:
"Procrastination was created to give you time for the things that you'd otherwise have no time for"
-Me

Beautiful story!

on Jan. 24 2013 at 5:23 pm
SunshineKarmaGirl, Weedsport, New York
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If You Don't Have Anything Nice to Say, Don't Say It At All

You are very talented!! Check out my story You Know My Name Not My Story in the "Other" section

KaTie98 said...
on Sep. 26 2012 at 8:56 am
KaTie98, Reykjavík, Other
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First when I started reading your story, I got a bit bored and did not understand the point of it. But when you got to the point I started getting interested and when finally you got to the end it made the boring part worth it! You are a very good writer but what you need to work on is making the beginning more exciting :)

katie98 said...
on Sep. 19 2012 at 8:40 am
This is very well written and you give a good view of how the world really is! I don't think that it's a bad thing to use size 12 at all, it's actually normal. I didn't get a lot of the first paragraph though and didn't think you were getting to the point but when you got to the point it was really good! You are a good writer. 

on Aug. 22 2012 at 10:49 am
MadamMercy BRONZE, Atlanta, Georgia
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my motto is to keep moving

i do feel that you are right people only think of what size you have to be to fit in well their shallow and its stupid you can be whatever size you want as long as you think that you are beutiful inside and out. people should judge you on  who you are on the inside not on the outside and even though you dont like them does not mean you dont have to respect them!

on May. 26 2012 at 9:43 am
Plethora BRONZE, Austin, Texas
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I love how your piece makes a point without blantantly stating it. Well done!

on Mar. 16 2012 at 9:21 am
Black_Tiara BRONZE, Navi Mumbai, Other
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Really nice.... But dont worry... Be nice to people & don't giv a damn bout wat they say.... eventually ppl will realise your worth... cuz ppl don care bout anythin but personality... atleast dats wat i do... n i luv d way u write :) keep smiling!

LaraMei GOLD said...
on Jan. 18 2012 at 9:35 pm
LaraMei GOLD, Commack, New York
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this continues to be one of my favorite pieces ever =]

dotn_me BRONZE said...
on Dec. 23 2011 at 3:42 pm
dotn_me BRONZE, Camarillo, California
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this was awesome, and like the majority of other comments said, it does give a very open perspective on the struggle with weight that many many people face :)

on Dec. 3 2011 at 10:47 pm
Nora2012 BRONZE, Tenafly, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
"One who throws mud has no ground."

i love the double meaning title. the only thing you should be worried about when people whisper is that they are jealous of ur amazing writing :D

 


on Dec. 1 2011 at 8:56 pm
Karles_Ivy PLATINUM, Sunnyside, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
Sometimes the bully isn’t the captain of the cheerleaders or the girl who for some reason has it out for only you; sometimes the worst bully of them all is you.- Karles_Ivy

I absolutely loved this, especially because I could see myself in in it, but don't fret, a size 12 is nothing to worry about, it's beautiful even. Plus, it's good to stand out, like your writing.

on Dec. 1 2011 at 8:56 pm
Internal-Love PLATINUM, Queens, New York
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Favorite Quote:
Nothing's black or white, its all just a shade of gray---

















TI "Live your Life" ft Rihanna

You say so much in only a matter of words


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