If I had a full tank of gas and the day off, I would go to all the different universities I am considering for college. Right now I  still feel lost in my life. I feel conflicted and trapped in my decisions. How can I start my life when I don’t know who I am? I know who I want to be, but it seems (just like my road trip probably will be) I am lost in the confusion of how to get there.

At this point in my life, it is a struggle to face the reality that my times as a child, where my education is handed to me on a plate, where people tell me where to go and what to do is over, and I would much rather lay in bed and count the plastic stars on my bedroom ceiling than plan my life.

And it is here, now, writing this, that I change my mind on my road trip.

If I had a full tank of gas and the day off, I would drive. Not in any particular direction, just away. Because the here and now is too much to handle and how can I plan my career when I still can’t fall asleep unless I kiss my parents goodnight?