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I Am the One

August 15, 2010
By paninilene DIAMOND, Long Beach, California
paninilene DIAMOND, Long Beach, California
55 articles 3 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Done & Over"

"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."

"People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel. Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth."


Sometimes you see things you wish you'd never seen. Like an embarrassing video or a picture of your childhood buckteeth or your boyfriend making out with his ex. You'll wake up in the middle of the night and wonder if it was a dream, but you'll look around and notice how all the stuff he gave you is gone. You gave him back the stuffed animals and jewelery. He'd said for you to keep it, that he didn't have anything to do with it. But you told him not to give it to that girl, but to give it to his sister. At least she'd know he was sincere. Even the love letters that you'd kept were torn up in the trash with mascara tears all over them and all our pictures together are in the only place you could think of- the fireplace.

You know you should smile at your thorough work, but you can't because you're hurt and the pain is hurting you too much for you to stay angry. You're heart hurts and you feel like crap. People don't even ask if you're okay anymore because you look like crap too. Its because you know that your breakup was his stepping stone and your downfall. You try to remember that he's wrong and you're right. You try to remember that he cheated and that you're the one that broke up with him, but the feeling in your heart says that its your loss. Not his. The feeling in your heart says you're the one hurt and he's not.

You're the one staring at the phone waiting for him to call and beg for you back. You're the one waiting at the door for him to open it. You're the one. Everyone knows, everyone sees, and now- so do you. You start to realize it and you have to look in the mirror and say to yourself: Yes, you are the one. I am the one.


The author's comments:
Girls always deny things like this. The feeling and the emotions they feel is what they try to push away, but its not something to push. It's something to embrace because thats the thing you need to see to step over and not trip over. It starts just like this when you realize everything you've heard is everything you are.

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on Sep. 6 2011 at 6:52 pm
Andrea Witte SILVER, Anchorage, Alaska
7 articles 2 photos 19 comments
i know  how  you  feel

on Feb. 24 2011 at 9:48 pm
Rainbowmadhatter, Reno, Nevada
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perfect.

nothin else to it.

-Monkeyface:)

 


on Jan. 31 2011 at 11:53 pm
MaysileeDonner BRONZE, Milpitas, California
3 articles 0 photos 14 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Too close, I thought. There was nothing wrong with fire... as long as you didn't stand too close."

sniffle sniffle. that was so sad, and so reflecting

on Nov. 24 2010 at 6:13 pm
Sincerely,DiscreteEnvy SILVER, Jersey City, New Jersey
6 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you"

So True. Its sad it is this way.

on Nov. 10 2010 at 8:48 pm
skyler_anne GOLD, Brewer, Maine
12 articles 6 photos 12 comments

Favorite Quote:
"what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger"

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over."

"To give anything less than your best is to sacrifice the gift.” -Pre

this is so well said! it explains so much.


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