I Feel very Strongly about people knowing how to treat depression and to know the signs if somebody is depressed before it is too late. I think this is a huge deal because it can be life or death for some people. And There is nothing wrong with you if you have depression it isn’t your choice.

I am dedicated to becoming a psychiatric care counselor for kids. This is my primary goal to achieve because I know I can help more than most people. I attempted to take my life I'm not going to go into details about what I tried. But This has strengthened me even though I had to go through the worst.

My parents came to the hospital I was in and I was pretending to sleep because I was scared and disappointed that I hurt them. But My mom and dad were crying next to me, And the doctor’s and everyone there left the room even my mom. It was just me and my dad and he came over to me grabbed my hand patted it twice and in between pouts and tears he said “Sorry I Failed you.” And I cried because he is the best father I could ask for and he didn’t deserve any of this.

The next day I was moved to a child’s psychiatric care for 2 weeks with being able to only see my family for an hour every other day. I was scared of being there because I had to wake up and go eat with 6 people I didn't know. There were kids ranged from 8-16: an 8-year-old, 11-year-old, 13-year-old, 15-year-old and two 16-year-olds. They were the nicest people I have ever met and the most comfortable I have ever been around people.

But I was taught a few skills at the hospital: How to cope with my problems, how to talk to people and just open up and to have a better relationship with my family. And they saved my life not right then but for the future. And it's almost been a year since I was there at the hospital and it is scary to think about what I did and how I felt.

It’s important to be able to know how to help with these problems and how to notice if someone is getting depressed. For me, it started to push away my friends and then just go home and sleep for hours until the next day. Every day I did the same thing. And I was a straight B student then I started to get straight f’s. Everyone just told me I was different. But everyone acts different but the main thing to look for is if they just aren’t the same as they used to be. It’s easier for teachers and close friends to figure this out but if you do have a feeling someone you love is depressed and they aren’t getting the help that they need tell a counselor. It is insanely hard to talk to your parents about this stuff and if they talk to their parents they will deny it until the conversation is over. That’s how it was for me at least.

Depression and suicide and just being unhappy is what I am most passionate about helping people deal with and to learn to not just suppress your feelings but to cope with them. I know I can help more than most people because I have had first-hand experience. That’s why I'm dedicated to helping people with depression.