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Secrets and Mistakes MAG

By Anonymous

     Ten karats. One big blue jewel, the birthstone of a Sagittarian, and around it, more diamonds than you can count on one hand.
Six months earlier, I was an innocent, boyfriend-less little girl with commitment issues. Fast forward to four days before my freshman year, and he was slipping a ring on my finger.
It wasn’t how I’d imagined getting engaged; it was far from romantic. We had been banned from seeing each other, but I would find ways.
We loved like spiders, weaving intricate webs of silky lies. We went weeks upon weeks without seeing each other, and each kiss made it harder to say good-bye. Five minutes would become 10, 20, 60 ... until we were secretly spending the whole day together.
From the moment we met we dated on and off, each time getting more intense and leading to more lies. I lied to my friends, my family, and most importantly to myself.
For every good minute, there were at least 20 bad ones, yet we kept going. If we weren’t together, we were on the phone. Puppy love overwhelmed us. We were so “in love” it sickened people. Together, we were all smiles and giggles, holding hands and locking eyes. We spoiled each other - always buying ice cream and movie tickets. I thought I loved him and he thought he loved me, but as time went on, the “love” faded.
I took my time and drew it out, made him suffer. It sounds sadistic, but it was the best thing to do. It took me a month to figure it out, but I knew we had to break up.
The ring? I still have it. I keep it in its little pink box in my purse. Sometimes I put it on and tears come to my eyes.
“I’ll be your best-kept secret and your biggest mistake.” Fall Out Boy said it better than I ever could. But sometimes mistakes can be the best things that ever happen to you.

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This article has 10 comments.

i love this so much!

on May. 23 2016 at 5:13 pm
MoonBaby SILVER, Idaho Falls, Idaho
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Favorite Quote:
It's better to have it and not need it than to need it and not have it.

I can relate. I think a lot of people can relate, more than they are willing to admit. Even to themselves.

on Oct. 21 2011 at 10:45 pm
Imperfectlife SILVER, Rochester, New York
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I like it a lot!


on Jul. 25 2011 at 1:26 am
IAmWhoIWantToBe PLATINUM, Manila, Other
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Favorite Quote:
‎"I’m learning how to drown out the constant noise that is such an inseparable part of my life. I don’t have to prove anything to anyone. I only have to follow my heart and concentrate on what I want to say to the world: I run my world." - Beyoncé

This is sad. Great article!

on Jan. 12 2011 at 7:12 pm
Katie_Potatie PLATINUM, Leavenworth, Kansas
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Favorite Quote:
There are no regrets in my life; because there is no time for mistakes. -(ME) Katie quote

I've been there. Middle of Freshman year. He even lived with me and my family. I still have my ring as well. What a beautiful tale. You told it beautifully as well. I adored and related to it. Thank you for writing this. I think it just made my whole day. =)

on Apr. 20 2010 at 2:59 am
mcpanicfanic SILVER, Cincinnati, Ohio
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I LOVE FALL OUT BOY!!!!! you had me at that line. good job!!!!!!

A. C. said...
on Mar. 4 2010 at 11:39 pm
A. C., La Mesa, California
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Sadly, I know exactly how you feel. But you put in words I never could.

jwatts122 said...
on Nov. 10 2009 at 8:12 pm
Two thumbs up! In such a short response you were able to fill my head with knowledge. You opened up about something near and dear to your heart. It takes a lot to put yourself out there and left everyone see you for who you are, feelings, mistakes and all. You did an amazing job writing this. I love the quote-it ties everything together!

on Nov. 8 2009 at 3:52 pm
CaseyLeigh PLATINUM, Moraga, California
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Favorite Quote:
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to.

This story is so real, it gave me the chills.

on Sep. 17 2009 at 10:39 pm
Ren-P. PLATINUM, Tulsa, Oklahoma
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Favorite Quote:
"You must give up a life you’d planned in order to have the life that’s waiting for you." ~ Joseph Campbell

I love the way you wrote this and the story you told. It takes guts to put something real where everyone can see. Great job! :)