when i sit back and i think about how my life has gone i wonder one thing. that is why? why did i do half the stuff i did. I use to party all th time went out smoked weed everyday sometimes 5-6 times a day my whole paycheck woulod be spent on weed cigs and alcohole. my parents had no cloue because i learned how to hide it. I will not blame anyone else for my mistakes because i know it was my fault i choose to do what i did. but that was because i was extreamly depressed but that made me the person i am today. Would i change anything no because i'm scared to see what i would of turned out to be if i hadn't of gone through all the obsticles my life isnt perfect but its not as bad as most and thats what i tell myself to get through the day i am no longer the person i use to be and because of that i lost the friends i had they don't want to be apart of my life because i don't smoke or anything like that anymore i'm looking to my future and bettering myself because when i have kids one day i don't want them to do what i did and i know i won't be able to yell at them because i did the same things and that kills me