Whenever sadness is brought upon me or someone that I love, it hits hard. It takes over beauty, joy. And I find myself clinging to horrible things. I don't want it to be that way. I also feel happiness so strongly though. Whether it's gazing at the stars from the the trampoline. letting the sunshine fill my entire body, or feeling beautiful because of lyrics to a great song. What happens here is that everything hits me. It all comes flooding in all at once. Everything good, everything bad. It's way too much to ever tell because well, its's EVERYTHING. It tells me that I am alive. This is real. It happened, it's happening. I have a life, I love people, I dislike things, I have feelings and emotions. I am human. I am alive.