When you sit there and beg God to end your pain right here. To just strike you dead. And you say you will accept a little bit of a lot of pain to end what’s going on right then. Then God doesn’t kill you and just adds to your emotional pain, you feel so hurt, so betrayed, and still in so much pain. But you said you’d accept a lot of pain for a short amount of time right now to end the pain for a while. So instead of killing you, God has sent an obstacle down in your life, and with it He says, “If you keep your faith in me throughout this impediment, and you let me lead you through it, you will survive and I will send blessings to bless you.”