“I’m looking right now,” I said hard to swallow. My facial expression and my mood changed as I was about to tell Nadia the heartbreaking news... She could already guess from how my eyes began to water and how speechless I was, that it was true. In that moment I knew my eyes were going to shed more tears that I ever had, and this would change me forever.
       

“Mom can you please pick me up from Nadia's,” I cried. “I need to go home.”
       

“Why what happened?” My mom asked concerned.
       

“Just pick me up i’ll tell you when you get here.”  She arrived about 6 minutes later.  As I got into the car, my eyes were red and tears stained my face. I didn’t want to speak, in fact I couldn’t speak. It was all a confusion to me I couldn't believe it. My mom was so confused too, until I told her what happened.
             

“Zoe, is gone m-,” I said staring blankly down at my feet, starting to cry.
            

“ Wait WHAT? The Zoe that you’ve known since 5th grade?” My mom asked just as confused as I was when I found out that summer afternoon on facebook.
            

“Yes, mom.” I tried not to cry but tears spilled out of my eyes. She held my hand all the way home and didn’t speak. I didn’t want to talk, nor did I want anyone else to. We arrived home and I jotted out of the car into my room. I had to be alone; my mom understood.
      

Later that night,  still in my bedroom I finally went on my phone still traumatized with the fact that Zoe’s gone. Going on my phone didn’t change all I seen on my facebook newsfeed was posts about Zoe. Family, and friends still heartbroken and forever will be with the news, then I realized that I really was one of those friends. Heartbroken.  My heart kept racing and weight held down on my chest. In my mind I was hoping that it was just a nightmare that i’ll wake up and everything that happened will just disappear. I thought to myself  I was just talking to her a couple days ago, this can’t be true. My eyes closed just hoping that this was a nightmare and that the next day all this wondering will go away.
      

The next morning, that’s when I knew it wasn’t a nightmare. I didn’t wake up to it disappearing, it was all true and very real.  Flash backs hit my brain and I was reminiscing all of the times we shared. I could still feel the warmth of her when I remembered the way she smiled or laughed. Even when we were in science class all we would talk about was our deepest secrets, those moments meant the most to me and will always. All I could think about was seeing her and being able to share other unforgettable memories. One more laugh, one more hug, one more secret, and even just to see her smile. But she was gone, and she wasn’t coming back. As much as it broke my heart to realize it, I just had to live with the fact that I wouldn’t be able to see her again.
      

This changed me as a person, to always be there for your friends. Even when there might not seem like anything is wrong, always tell them that you love and care about them. You never know how much they can take whether it’s a lot or none, or what they’re not telling you. Any Day could be their lasts and i’ve learned that, it’s horrible losing friends so cherish the ones that are with you today.