Nobody here really knows me. And since nobody here really knows

me they're building their own perceptions of me and I don't like

some of the ones they're coming up with. If you knew me you

would know I always feel like there's more I could do; things I can

improve on. Not just things I do, but with myself as well. If you

knew me you would know that I care for nothing more than the

people I love to be happy. I set the ones I care about above myself

and I'll do anything to make sure they're happy and make sure

they're safe and in good hands. If you knew me you would know I

try my hardest to stay happy or at least seem like. If you knew me

you would know how to tell, I mean REALLY tell when I can barely

hold myself together. If you knew me you would know I've never felt

good enough or been completely 100% happy with myself. If put

myself down a lot and it usually sounds like a joke when I do it, but

sometimes I really do think what I'm saying is true. I never feel that

I'm good enough for certain people or that I'm not doing as much

as I could to keep them happy or deserve to have them in my life. If

you knew me you would know I used to have issues with my anger.

If you knew me you would know that I used to never cry in front of

people.
If you knew me, you would know I'm not easily brought down by

others. You would know that I'll accept almost any challenge

presented to me and I WILL accomplish each and every obstacle

someone tries to set in my path. If you knew me you would know

that no matter how many times someone knocks me down over and

over again; I will get right back up on my feet. You would that my

goal is prove everyone wrong who said I couldn't do it or says I

won't make it. You would know how hard it is for me just to get up

sometimes because I feel like if I do, I'll be judge for each little step I

take. I do stupid things, usually to protect or for the better well

being of my friends. People talk and think I'm crazy. They think I'm

a w****. They think I'm a poser, nothing but a fake.
You don't know who I really am. I've been here for almost three

months and you don't anything about me. Three months to where

you don't talk to me or you don't see me everyday doesn't mean a

think. Don't judge me if you don't know me; because if you knew me

you wouldn't judge me.